Hahaha didn't get the green bit for ages, re-read it and my post about six times before it clicked

Its what two glasses of red wine does to my brain....
Cornish - please think about our conversation. I
know how isolating this illness is - but please realise, if you do carry on as you are and if the outcome will be as you described, it will affect
so many people. Your family, people you see very day and
us.
I know how tempting it is to just stop everything - how it can seem the only form of escape, but that is what this illness wants us to think! It
wants to beat us down, to succomb and give in to it - but it really is beatable! I know it doesn't feel like it right now and it all seems so much effort to make it go away, but its all to do with small steps. Rewarding yourself for the smaller things and working up to the bigger things. Perhaps being off work completley would be a bad idea for you - perhaps claiming employment and support allowance and working your permitted 16 hours a week (or earning £95 a week, whichever comes first) would be better, so you are still seeing people. Even if it just a couple of hours a day? You don't have to be off completley - but once you are signed off, you do get offered support - it may only be from the job centre, but they
give you a time and place and it is someone to talk to who's job it is to just monitor you, they aren't going to try and force you back to full time or anything like that. But you need to rest, you need to look after yourself - sleep and food make such a huge difference to our resiliance to this.
I made a post on Sunday about it being a year since I was diagnosed and about how it
does get better with the right treatment - even if you dont beleive in yourself, please believe me. I know you can do this, you are stubborn enough!!
