tried to but failed every time. work really is the only thing i have left that i can do, there is nothing else in my life. i live to work, that all my life is other than the suffering.
i know exactly how your feeling smirfy
ive got an emergency appointment tomorrow too
ok now im feeling horrific. a friend has just text me telling me they have been speaking to the council to get the authorities involved.
hmmm suppose that might mean im being locked up "£$ or something.
F**K F**K F**K sorry for that

only way i could express it
i actually think they could have reason for sectioning, i can be a danger to my self but not others, i cant look after my self properly, i cant get my self to proper treatment.
the worst thing i have to admit is that i cant tell the psychiatrists everything that i know i should and its important stuff but it scares me.
i know ive slowly become worse and ive learnt i can hide how i am feeling. im not really sure if ive actually fully opened up to anyone yet.
