Can't cope

[willows]

I made it to my brother's farewell do but felt so anxious the whole time I was there but at least I did it. However it has left me feeling so drained and exhausted I don't feel able to function today.  Can't get out of bed. Feel safer under my duvet. Already stressing about going to work tomorrow and all the pressure to be 'normal' there.

[bookletters]

Well done Willows!!! I was thinking of you last night and wondering how it went!!!! *()

[Michael Frankum]

Once again Willows, a painful situation, yet you managed and survived it. You are very strong, even if it's not always obvious to you. I hope that your stress levels drop.  And I hope you get some of your strength back soon. %^% Best wishes. Michael

[Sweetpea]

You managed it Willows so you should be proud of yourself.  I do feel for you putting on the 'I am ok' face is hard work.  I do hope work goes ok for you tomorrow.  The way I cope with situations is to think that in so many hours/minutes I will be back home safe  %^%.

S x x x x

[willows]

Facing a week of hell at work including a team day which i am dreading because i cant deal with being in big groups of people at the moment, my lovely brother moving a long way away tomorrow, my daughter having an operation on Wednesday and my medication dose being doulbled today. I feel like I should just give up before it even gets started because I can't feel much lower than I do right now  

[Catbrian]

It's no surprise that you felt so worn out after your brother's party.  Mixing with people while depressed is bound to exhaust you, but well done for seeing it through.

It sounds like you have a very busy and stressful week ahead of you.  I hope you manage to get through it

[willows]

My brother is moving today so feeling very sad and I have also been summonsed to a meeting with my manager at 1pm so stressing about what that is going to involve. Double the medication has left me feeling strange this morning. It is like my mind and body are not working together. I feel disorientated. Can't get my thoughts straight in my head which doesn't bode we'll for the meeting today.

[Sweetpea]

Oh Willows  %^% this is a difficult day for you.

S x x x x

[bookletters]

Thinking of you Willows, when your meds kick in properly I am sure things will get better very quickly xx

[willows]

Meeting with manager was really rubbish. No one is listening to me and everyone seems to know what is best for me no matter what my opinion is. Battling with myself tonight as to whether I should just give up fighting and go sick tomorrow or find the strength to carry on as I still feel that without my job I would have no reason to get up in the mornings and nothing to focus on. I think the management are grinding me down though. I have the full support of occy health that I should be a work and they have stated to me that the way the managers are treating me is bordering on harassment and bullying and my advisor is seeking legal advice for me because I just haven't got the head space to look into it myself. Could really do without all this.
My daughter's operation has been cancelled for tomorrow as there is no bed available so that is all up in the air again.
Exhausted but can't get to sleep.

[Michael Frankum]

It's one thing after another isn't it? If you could be allowed to get just one thing sorted out, you might get a bit of space to deal with things. I sympathise with you Willows. It's terrible to feel that nobody is actually listening to you.  %^% I'm glad that the Occupational Health people are a bit more understanding of what is going on, and are helping your work position. If they can get the bosses to be a bit more understanding, that might help. I admire you very much for sticking with it, and I hope that things become a bit more acceptable really soon. Best wishes Willows. Michael xxx  *()

[Pip]

I'm sorry your meeting didn't go well %^%

[willows]

Woke up feeling strangely calm today which was good because I had an appointment with the occupational health physician to assess me as a result of my managers concerns that the OHU advisor was not giving the right advice to them! I stayed calm and relatively rational and she has fully supported me staying at work and increased the duties I am able to do. My managers still have to agree to this but they will be on thin ice if they still disagree. Have a meeting with my manager on Monday to discuss this but I am feeling hopeful.
My daughters op has been rescheduled for Monday as well so a big day but actually feeling a bit positive at the moment.

[bookletters]

Hurray!!!!!!! So glad to hear willows!!!!!
Bring on more calmness and positivity for you petal, really pleased to hear!!!!

[Michael Frankum]

I hope that you have a completely restful weekend. Good luck for Monday. I hope that your daughter's op goes smoothly, and I hope that the manager gets a bit of insight into the problems being caused for you by the lack of true support. You are really trying so hard to sort things out, and you should be supported, and applauded for your efforts.  *()