CaptK... I have spent too long deducing what other people might be thinking about me. For me, that trait is probably based on paranoia. Bottom line, we don't know for sure what someone is thinking. The Doc, if he specialises in Psychiatry, probably appears blasé because he has seen it all before, nothing will shock or surprise him. I try to put my paranoia aside and press ahead with whatever it is I want to say. 99% of the time, I eventually deduce my doubts were unfounded.
For many years I periodically badgered my psychiatrist. I knew something more than depression or PTSD was wrong. Everyone kept saying it was because I had been through such a traumatic event in my life, I was bound to feel bad. But, I knew for sure, something more was at the core of my MH. It took 13 years before the Personality Disorder was diagnosed. It has been a revelation and my understanding is helping me deal with the depression a lot better. I can now ascertain what symptoms are down to the depression and what are the PD.
I am still doubting my Bipolar diagnosis. I was supposed to go back to the Psychiatrist to discuss it further. My extreme mood swings do last considerable periods of time, but I am more troubled by the rapid swings on a daily basis. My CPN assures me that the clients she sees with PD all have major issues with these rapid mood swings