How are you feeling today?

[Janey63]

Smurfy and Cornish - i hope you get the help you need asap-

i don't feel too good today- nothing in particular just not good

mad an appointment for docs on Monday to discuss treatemnt and a possible return to work- although I am dreading that bit!

[cornish]

Thanks janey, really appreciate it  :)

ive felt terrible all day but on the way home from work i had to make a detour due to an accident and i had to pass an old friends house who i used to help work on land rovers with and noticed my favorite vehicle ever in his drive and had to stop ( his land rover 101 gs ), he doesn't really know about my illness and i can hide it for a while around people who dont know and we started talking land rovers and well i managed to stay for just under 30 minuets, then stopped on the way home and did about 15 minuets of work on my land rover all i did was remove the floors. for me all of that is a huge amount of progress. but now i feel exhausted and stupidly worse than ever.
was nice to have almost an hour of vaguely normality.

[seamie]

a counsellor i was seeing cornish, told me that there was no such thing as depression, only a lack of positive experiences in our  lives. sounds like you just had a couple,there mate. dont work to hard this weekend and try and put some time aside for tinkering with your landy

feel lost again

[Zaf]

Definitely try to do something you enjoy if you can  :)

I'm feeling anxious, i've got to drive to Bedford this afternoon, stay at B&B overnight then go on to Haynes very early in the morning, apart from the journey and meeting people I dont know i discovered my cigarette lighter socket in the car has died so my sat nav wont work, David is going to pick up another one in town later and try to install it in time. Aarrgghh

[Depina]

AAgh, hope you get sorted. Have a good day today, hope you are feeling better. Had some friends round today and had a nice chat, friends are good and chats on here. Thank you. Depina XX PS Got the book today that you recommended. Will read later

[Zaf]

Hopefully sat nav now working, still feeling anxious but hopefully it'll pass once I get driving.

Hope you find the book useful, I did and I think it explained things to David too.

xx

[Depina]

I'm sure you will enjoy it once you get started. enjoy the B&B too.  XX

[cornish]

physically and emotionally drained again but part of me keeps thinking well done for my tiny bit of progress yesterday :) but i thought of more things to buy for the land rover now  ordered a few little things i can do in about 5 minuits, hopefully if i manage to do them then it will build my confidence :)

[cornish]

ok gone right down hill since my last post, i went to get the log book for the landy and noticed that all the paperwork for one of my other cars is missing and i think the mot is up this month but im not sure, its off the road anyway so doesn't matter too much but now im just anxious as hell about it. now im just worrying and stressed and dunno what the hell to do, ive spent the last hour trying to find it all, cant see one thing relating to the car, not even a set of keys. now im worrying that maybe the car isn't actually real and its another of my paranoid delusions  !"!   now im pretty sure its real but ive had far more vivid delusions that haven't been true.   argh  "£"   diazipam to the rescue i suppose. hmm and i have to be up in 4 hours for work 

[Munchroom]

Cornish - your posts (up until the last one) have all seemed so positive!  :) Losing things stresses me out big time too, probably my biggest cause of panic attacks. I'm sure its not a delusion - you've probably just put everything together is a 'safe' place 

Zaf - I hope today is going well for you  &*( It must be re-assuring to know that even though you were incredibly anxious and encountered unexpected problems - You still did it!!! That is something to be massively proud of  :)

Depina - Seeing other people when we feel up to it can be so beneficial I agree  :) Really pleased you are feeling positive

Janey - I hope you are ok and not getting too anxious about tomorrow. Please do let us know how you get on and we are all here for support  :)

Right um... well, now for me  I'm back from Wales and exhausted! But it was so incredibly beautiful  :) We took over 400 pictures in total  but... wow, amazing. We had an aga and I didnt burn myself once!! (although the thought did cross my mind, but I resisted!  :)) but now I won't be happy with just a plain old oven anymore  Last night we cosied up with candles and a wood burner and read ghost stories to each other... but I did get pretty 'merry' shall we say! Although I woke up at 5am and went for a walk (just me and the dog) just as it was getting light - and took even more pictures  But just some time away from computers and phones (no mobile reception and no landline!) it was pure bliss - we didnt even have the tv on once! I think it really has done me the world of good - but I'll probably need to sleep quite a bit now! xx

[cornish]

not really to sure what to think, i cant find the stuff and i normally keep all the stuff in the same place and its gone or was never there at all. didnt sleep at all last night just searched all night n just got back from a 12 hour shift.  not sure what i should do, i dunno how to ask people if i actually own that car or if its real

[Zaf]

Cornish, is the car parked where you could easily check if its real?  I'm not being very clear but for instance, if you have a lock up or somewhere you park your other vehicles can you go and check to see if its there?

Sounds a lovely weekend Munch, so pleased you enjoyed yourself :)

Hope you're still feeling positive Depina

Hope all goes OK Janey

well, I got there and back without too much trauma, a few very anxious moments, especially when a road I needed to go down was closed and the sat nav seemed to take me a very strange way round, then at one point it was convinced I was in the middle of a field and kept telling me to turn right when I was on a dual carriagway!  I guess its quite old now and the road was a new one.  I was terrified I'd have a panic attack and mae a complete idiot of myself when I had to meet the people I didnt know but somehow I managed not to - considering only a few weeks ago I couldnt face going outside its definite progress :)

[Munchroom]

Definite progress!  :) Well done - I think you should feel incredibly proud of yourself for doing all of that

Cornish, how about taking a photo and posting it?? Or checking the reg on one of these sites where you can see what the car is registered as? (SORN, crushed etc) Please don't panic - you are probably exhausted  &*(

[Zaf]

I'm not sure about proud but pleased I didnt have any major panics  :)

I think I've improved much quicker than normal, partly due to he help and encouragement I've found in here and partly because I have a really fantastic counsellor this time

Good idea to check the car on line or posting a photo :)

[cornish]

if its real then from what i remember i parked it outside the company workshop (haven't been back there for months now due to my hectic schedule) near the start of the year i think, there is a picture of it on my phone but its not anywhere i recognize. im fairly sure im just exhausted and paranoid again, it happens a lot, especially after ive worked my self to exhaustion again.  i really am going to try to not work next weekend but i think i will just end up going