Can't cope

[Zaf]

Glad you got some sleep, insomnia is awful  %^% xxx

[willows]

Had enough can't take any more

[Michael Frankum]

You have been very brave. Please find the strength to get through another night. Please let those who care about you help. (Please feel free to tell me that I'm a simplistic fool.)

[Zaf]

Hang in there willows  xxxx

[Sweetpea]

Please keep fighting willows %^%. S x x x x

[willows]

another night in hell. my doctor has told me to call the out of hours mental health helpline when I am having thoughts of ending it all in the night she says it will help me get the support i need but i cant  cope with talking to faceless strangers about my biggest failure in life so far.

[Buttercup]

Hi Willows

I found the Tamazepan took a few nights to start working.

If you phone the mental health line they might send someone out, that's what happens in my area, if they think it is necessary.

Xxx

[willows]

so little sleep again last night how is only taking tamazepam once or twice a week going to help. Banging headache, feel sick and upset stomach this morning. need to feel better as i have to be a work for 1 o'clock.
Feel so desperately low today but have to put on a front for my precious daughter who is waiting for results from a biopsy for suspected cancer. don't know how i am going to be strong for her if the results are not good. i need to be well NOW but all my mind wants to focus on is finding a way out. how selfish does that make me

[Ezel]

willows, try not to beat yourself up as depression can be hard to live with plus you're trying to be brave for your daughter.  I know it's easier said than done  %^%

[willows]

 

[willows]

Insomnia = hell. My mind will not switch off and let me sleep. So anxious and scared of where my mind is taking me.
 

[Buttercup]

I think it would be best to make another appointment with your GP to see what other help you could  get or to see if you can take the Tamazepam a little more often.

Xxx

[Zaf]

I think Buttercup is right xxx

[Sweetpea]

I agree. You can not go on without sleep. S x x x x

[willows]

Have been awake now for 26 hours .been in a very low place overnight....still am. working a late shift today so won't get home from work much before 11pm. hopefully will be so tired then I will crash out. too worried about how addictive tamazapam is to want to see if i can take it moreoften. if i could Switch my brain off at night and stop over thinking everything i am sure I would be able to sleep but how to switch of I dont know. switching off permanently may be my only choice