Hello My Name Is Paul

[Zaf]

Hi Paul,

I had a vertebra 'out' in my neck, I dont mind the acupuncture but not keen on the osteopathy bit, but I know it works so I go!  Much better now but still rather achy, I have an appointment next week which I can cancel if I think its feeling good enough not to have to go.

High blood pressure is often a sign of stress, its great your GP is Monitoring things closely, do you have another appointment soon?

That definitely sounds the way to go Paul, if you dont argue she has less amunition to throw back at you

xx

[FootieFan87]

You sound as though you've dealt with things very well and are just protecting yourself from the others hysteria. I hope you take the time you need to get back on your feet and I can tell from your tone that you're getting there. All the best for the future mate x

[Paulnp63]

Hi Paul,

I had a vertebra 'out' in my neck, I dont mind the acupuncture but not keen on the osteopathy bit, but I know it works so I go!  Much better now but still rather achy, I have an appointment next week which I can cancel if I think its feeling good enough not to have to go.

High blood pressure is often a sign of stress, its great your GP is Monitoring things closely, do you have another appointment soon?

That definitely sounds the way to go Paul, if you dont argue she has less amunition to throw back at you

xx

Hi Zaf,

That does sound painful, never tried acupuncture or know of anyone who has before, but have heard that it's supposed to be good, my ache only lasted a day or two, I think I just twisted myself getting up.

Next appointment is November, he wanted me to make another appointment in about two weeks time, tried to get one earlier but was told he was on holiday for two weeks, visiting doctors is not something I know much about, but wanted to stay with the same doctor each time I visit.

I spoke to the boys today as it was my birthday, they were looking forward to coming up to see me as much as I am to see them, I then spoke to my wife, wasn't looking forward to that but have to say it wasn't that bad, we did discuss the way I am at the moment, basically sleep, get up, eat, sleep, get up, eat and so on and how she is, I said at the moment I don't go out that much as I don't feel like it at times or back out of things or more over I'm asleep, it's probably why I have high blood pressure, she said I should get up in the mornings, go out more and do things etc well I said it's just not that easy, she then worried about having the boys come here and wether I could cope, well I think it will be the best medication I could have, give me motivation because I think thats whats lacking, I need something to pick me up and I'm sure they will do that.

Well back to bed, got a room next door to start getting ready tomorrow for the boys to sleep in

Night Night,

Paul

[Paulnp63]

You sound as though you've dealt with things very well and are just protecting yourself from the others hysteria. I hope you take the time you need to get back on your feet and I can tell from your tone that you're getting there. All the best for the future mate x

Thank you, I have a number around me that are helping me through it, my mum has been brilliant, there are others in or know our family that I have found out since been through depression and know how I feel, my wife and her family obviously has never seen or know anyone that has, so I assume thats why, joining this forum has really helped me too and I am so grateful to all those that have replied.

All the best,

Paul

[Zaf]

Hi Paul,

I had a vertebra 'out' in my neck, I dont mind the acupuncture but not keen on the osteopathy bit, but I know it works so I go!  Much better now but still rather achy, I have an appointment next week which I can cancel if I think its feeling good enough not to have to go.

High blood pressure is often a sign of stress, its great your GP is Monitoring things closely, do you have another appointment soon?

That definitely sounds the way to go Paul, if you dont argue she has less amunition to throw back at you

xx

Hi Zaf,

That does sound painful, never tried acupuncture or know of anyone who has before, but have heard that it's supposed to be good, my ache only lasted a day or two, I think I just twisted myself getting up.

Next appointment is November, he wanted me to make another appointment in about two weeks time, tried to get one earlier but was told he was on holiday for two weeks, visiting doctors is not something I know much about, but wanted to stay with the same doctor each time I visit.

I spoke to the boys today as it was my birthday, they were looking forward to coming up to see me as much as I am to see them, I then spoke to my wife, wasn't looking forward to that but have to say it wasn't that bad, we did discuss the way I am at the moment, basically sleep, get up, eat, sleep, get up, eat and so on and how she is, I said at the moment I don't go out that much as I don't feel like it at times or back out of things or more over I'm asleep, it's probably why I have high blood pressure, she said I should get up in the mornings, go out more and do things etc well I said it's just not that easy, she then worried about having the boys come here and wether I could cope, well I think it will be the best medication I could have, give me motivation because I think thats whats lacking, I need something to pick me up and I'm sure they will do that.

Well back to bed, got a room next door to start getting ready tomorrow for the boys to sleep in

Night Night,

Paul

Its not something I would do for pleasure but so far its always helped me get over injuries (I used to do a lot of competitive riding) and it doesnt really hurt.

Its often a good idea to see your usual doctor but if you do feel the need before your next appointment do go and see the locum,  he will have all the notes and know exactly whats happening,  its better than waiting if you feel you have slipped back or are feeling ill for any reason.

How you feel is very typical of depression and although its good to make yourself do just a tiny bit more than you feel you want to, its not a good idea to push yourself too far as you may get a set back,  its lovely that you are feeling enthusiastic about your boys staying and I'm sure they will be a great tonic for you :)

[Depina]

Have a lovely time with the boys Paul, they will light up your day.
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[Paulnp63]

Its not something I would do for pleasure but so far its always helped me get over injuries (I used to do a lot of competitive riding) and it doesnt really hurt.

Its often a good idea to see your usual doctor but if you do feel the need before your next appointment do go and see the locum,  he will have all the notes and know exactly whats happening,  its better than waiting if you feel you have slipped back or are feeling ill for any reason.

How you feel is very typical of depression and although its good to make yourself do just a tiny bit more than you feel you want to, its not a good idea to push yourself too far as you may get a set back,  its lovely that you are feeling enthusiastic about your boys staying and I'm sure they will be a great tonic for you :)

Fingers crossed I wont need to go back before, the excitement of the boys coming does want me to do lots and lots, but I know it wont be possible, I plan to do little bits each day, I did help my mum move a few bits today in the room, got the beds to sort out as the week goes on etc, I did feel a bit tired this evening and had fourty-winks, I just hoping the boys will understand I'm not going to be running around kicking a ball and the like, I'll leave that to my niece & nephew I think, but all of this has lifted me a bit.

My mum got a nice text tonight from my wife complete with a smilie, maybe after our long chat last night she understands a little, I can't see us back together as such, she seems to value money more than me, I did say to her that if it was the other way around and for any reason she lost her job, we lost the house etc, I would have stuck by her and the boys even if we ended up in a caravan, she said I bet you wouldn't, I said to her we are a family and that we stick together whatever get thrown at us and work through it, I would never throw her out, she still wasn't to sure but time will tell I suppose.

Night

Paul

[Paulnp63]

Have a lovely time with the boys Paul, they will light up your day.
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Can't wait, hoping to pick them up from her at Exeter Services on Sunday I hope, my brother and his wife will drive us down there as I'm not comfortable about driving to far at the moment, my wife wanted me to come and meet them there and I agreed, it will give me a little extra time with them too.

Night Depina,

Paul

[Zaf]

Its great to hear you feeling so positive Paul and very reassuring you realise you cant throw yourself back into normality straight away xxx

[Depina]

Hi Paul
Glad you have something good to look forward to

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[Paulnp63]

I do think I needed something like this to happen, although setting up the beds and moving things around has made me realise the lack of energy I have, my mum says I have lost confidence in doing things and has noticed a change in my mood since having the chance to have the boys here, we have a few ideas of what to do next week with them, trying to find non energetic things to do isn't easy, so sadly once they go back, the following week will probably be a week full of sleep for me, I hope I don't crash again.

Night all %$%

[Zaf]

Hi Paul

Its great you have something to look forward to like this :)  i wonder if you could find something energetic for them to do while you watch and cheer them on as well as less tiring things you can participate in as well?

I think you must expect to go down a bit after they have gone as not only will you miss them being with you but, as yoi say, you will be tired - knowing and expecting this should make it a bit easier to cope with but its always disappointing to have a low after a high.

[Depina]

Paul
have a great time with the boys!
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[Paulnp63]

Hi Paul

Its great you have something to look forward to like this :)  i wonder if you could find something energetic for them to do while you watch and cheer them on as well as less tiring things you can participate in as well?

I think you must expect to go down a bit after they have gone as not only will you miss them being with you but, as yoi say, you will be tired - knowing and expecting this should make it a bit easier to cope with but its always disappointing to have a low after a high.

Hi Zaf

I had a sleepless night the other night thinking about them being here and when they go back home, obviously worried me a bit, caught up with some sleep during today, tomorrow is a long day and can't wait to be back here with them, I'm just glad that I have enough family here to keep them entertained I hope, my eldest is into everything and never still, so it will be a challenge, last time he was here he found things my mum thought she had lost forever, frightens us a bit, he's an early riser and one morning he also found an old laptop from years ago and a webcam that my mum won in a raffle, he managed to connect it all up, but couldn't get it to work as none of it was compatible, we were stunned when we come down, anyway I know my mum loves kids, always has, she works for the local playgroup, so she will be one of my saviours  :)

How you coping, back pain and all?

Paul

[Paulnp63]

Paul
have a great time with the boys!
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Thank you Di, only a few hours to go, going to get some more rest now, just glad I'm not driving.

Night

Paul