How are you feeling today?

[Munchroom]

The party was good  :) It was lovely of my sister and her boyfriend and eldest son to come down for it and I think everyone that came had a good time! I think it was all too much though. I didn't really stop last week at all, I've been curled up on the sofa thismorning watching daytime tv and I realised I hadn't had time to think about things that happened last week when I was rushing around trying to do everything and get everything ready! I didnt sleep very well last night (got to sleep around 4) but managed a lie-in thismorning.... but I was *just* getting into some sort of routine with my sleep, so now I'm worried that its all going to go to pot again  

I'm feeling very much like I just want to curl up very tiny and hide from everything   I had a meeting at work last week which I just didn't have time or the energy to absorb some of the things that were brought up - but now I have a bit of time to, I'm feeling very anxious about work. I should ring my mum as I haven't spoken to her properly since the party but i feel I would just burst into tears, I'm trying not to cry just typing this! Its ridiculous, as nothing in particular has happened! I have just gone back to feeling very anxious and out of my depth. I also worry that I've eaten far too much and my sister said I was looking good and 'less frail' so, I've obviously out on weight over the last couple of months or so   How will I stop putting on weight?! What if I don't, what if now I am back to enjoying food a bit, I'm just going to go over the top and just carry on eating and getting fatter?? I've already noticed a couple of pairs of trousers are a little tighter than they were a while ago - thats ok now, but what if it continues - what if I lose control over my eating and just don't stop putting on weight  

[Got]

Its definatly better to look less frail. She didn't mean you was getting fat. Please don't worry about your weight, I here girls talk about this all the time, and its a shame they worry about something that really isn't that important. I am sure you look much more lovely for looking less frail, you probably look healthier and have more colour...which is definatly a good thing.

[Sam_95]

Munchroom i'm kind of in the same position as you right now...I'm trying to stop my anorexic and bulimic tendencies and that means eating more (and keeping it all down!), so I've put on a bit of weight. I weighed myself this morning and it made me feel awful.

I feel like I have no sense of purpose if I don't carry on losing weight. But then another part of me is saying, I need to get on with my life and stop wasting time! It's just so hard being "normal"...

[Lol]

Munchroom poor you! It sounds as if you have all the trappings of having overwhelmed yourself. You did a great job from the sound of things at the week end and everything went so well. On the lead up you were So nervous which really takes it out on a person but adrenaline keeps you going, you obviously did a great job of the party but now it's over and you can think about it it sounds like you've had a bit of a crash! paranoia included! It is very disappointing and anxiety laden for you but it is quite normal and a bit to be expected after all you took on. You did SO well. Just ride this bit out until you feel a bit more yourself. And I bet all my money that you look beautiful just the way you are. I understand how you took that compliment, but it WAS a compliment. You are you. That's all you need to know and it's more than enough to be proud of.

[Lol]

I'm not surprised  

Please do make sure you look after yourself as the last thing you need is to go down with depression after all this stress and grief

xx

Thanks Zaf, too late. Have been to my GP after having a jolly lovely experience of not being able to coordinate my left and right hands, in the middle of taking a blood sample! Then my speach went rather slurred and I was confused. Then I had a panic attack out of sheer embarrassment and confusion I think! and my GP thinks I am on the brink of a 'partial breakdown!' whatever that is? He has given me other symptoms to look out for and I have had to give up karate and have to take it very easy at the gym. Great.

Who had 31/10/2011 12:36?

[Alstare1974]

Sorry to hear that lol. How are you feeling now?  I'm not surprised you're suffering though you've been under a lot of pressure.

[Lol]

I am just incredibly incredibly sad

[Zaf]

Munchroom, I think lol is right that you overdid things and are suffering from the after effects

Stevie is right too, "looking less frail" means looking healthy, not overweight.

We are all here to help and support you through this &*(

[Zaf]

I'm not surprised  

Please do make sure you look after yourself as the last thing you need is to go down with depression after all this stress and grief

xx

Thanks Zaf, too late. Have been to my GP after having a jolly lovely experience of not being able to coordinate my left and right hands, in the middle of taking a blood sample! Then my speach went rather slurred and I was confused. Then I had a panic attack out of sheer embarrassment and confusion I think! and my GP thinks I am on the brink of a 'partial breakdown!' whatever that is? He has given me other symptoms to look out for and I have had to give up karate and have to take it very easy at the gym. Great.

Who had 31/10/2011 12:36?

I was afraid you might suddenly be hit with depression or similar, you have tried so hard, coped with it for so long and finally been given a virtual slap in the face for all your efforts

You do so much in here to help and advise all of us, now please let us help you xxx

[Alstare1974]

I am just incredibly incredibly sad

Lol we're totally here for you. You know you can pm me any time chick. Try not to beat yourself up.

I'm feeling incredibly weird tonight almost sick with anxiety for no reason. Gonna have a shot of something I think.

[Lol]

Thanks so much both of you.

[Zaf]

Anything in particular brought those feelings on Alstare?

[Alstare1974]

Anything in particular brought those feelings on Alstare?

Not that I can think of :-(

[Zaf]

Its possibly the after effects of the physical and mental effects from the weekend

[smirfy21]

binging on chocolate cake and crisps its yummy and its helping me to forget me troubles