The party was good :) It was lovely of my sister and her boyfriend and eldest son to come down for it and I think everyone that came had a good time! I think it was all too much though. I didn't really stop last week
at all, I've been curled up on the sofa thismorning watching daytime tv and I realised I hadn't had time to think about things that happened last week when I was rushing around trying to do everything and get everything ready! I didnt sleep very well last night (got to sleep around 4) but managed a lie-in thismorning.... but I was *just* getting into some sort of routine with my sleep, so now I'm worried that its all going to go to pot again

I'm feeling very much like I just want to curl up very tiny and hide from everything

I had a meeting at work last week which I just didn't have time or the energy to absorb some of the things that were brought up - but now I have a bit of time to, I'm feeling very anxious about work. I should ring my mum as I haven't spoken to her properly since the party but i feel I would just burst into tears, I'm trying not to cry just typing this! Its ridiculous, as nothing in particular has happened! I have just gone back to feeling very anxious and out of my depth. I also worry that I've eaten far too much and my sister said I was looking good and 'less frail' so, I've obviously out on weight over the last couple of months or so

How will I stop putting on weight?! What if I don't, what if now I am back to enjoying food a bit, I'm just going to go over the top and just carry on eating and getting fatter?? I've already noticed a couple of pairs of trousers are a little tighter than they were a while ago - thats ok now, but what if it continues - what if I lose control over my eating and just don't stop putting on weight
