How are you feeling today?

[Bewildered]

Today I feel angry with myself. I have never been a comfort eater just a girl who likes her chocolate and I spent 15 months losing 60 pounds and getting in shape with exercise and healthy eating...but the last 2 months all I seem to do is eat. Like I am trying to fill up a hole or something. I have put on weight...something I haven't done since i lost it and I just do not have the mental energy to exercise. Yes mental...I feel like physically I could do it but mentally it just seems like part of a painful past I don't want to think about. So I am mad at myself for acting like a stereotypical weak girl and eating to make myself feel better.

[Lol]

Oh dear, you don't need that on top of everything else do you! I think it is very common to comfort eat through times like this, i did the opposite and have lost 20lbs! I understand when you mean about lack of mental energy preventing you from exerting physical energy. I get that and I think most people here do. It is what makes us want to take to our beds and stay there, but my bed just tortures me with thoughts and dreams of her and I can't stop the relentless torture, yet I don't have the mental energy to occupy myself any other way!

[Alstare1974]

I'm a bit tearful today and pretty low. Also got very sore legs from all the moving yesterday. Feeling a bit like I have no real future.

[Zaf]

Its not surprising you feel bad today Alstare, the move would not only have been physically tiring but emotionally tiring too.

Hang in there Alstare xx

[Alstare1974]

Thanks Zaf. All my stuff is in boxes spread across three sheds and I don't really know where anything is. It's all quite traumatic after packing up yesterday. I feel like I've taken a step beck 15 years.

[Zaf]

Its going to take time to get over it Alstare, take your time if you can, you need to rest a little if possible.

Things will go forward for you, if you can try not to dwell in the past too much xx

[Munchroom]

Overtired, irritable, fat, anxious and like I've come back down to earth with a very sudden bump 

[Alstare1974]

@Munch hugs

[Got]

My OCD is round the twist. No idea why...something I ate /drank.

[smirfy21]

Overtired, irritable, fat, anxious and like I've come back down to earth with a very sudden bump 

munchroom I am concerned for you today, is there something that has made you come down with a sudden bump or was is just a sudden downward spiral?
please keep posting and you're not alone
smirfy

[Zaf]

hope things look a bit better munch and stevie,  me - not as good as yesterday,  sat in the field a bit this morning again as I felt anxious,  now feeling a wee bit better thank goodness, lets see how the day goes.....

[Lol]

Good day everyone. Alstare you have done the worst bit, now the healing can really start without you having to return and have things ripped open again. Well done for doing what you did, I hope you can get to grips with it soon. Hold on there mate.

MUNCHROOM!!!! Poor you!!!!! Did you take on too much at the weekend do you think? How did it go??

Stevie and Zaf I hope you have felt some improvement as the day has gone on?

I want to run in the opposite direction today. Keep running until my legs simply wont go any more.

[Zaf]

not a lot lol but it'll probably get better once I get out of the office! (which will be fairly soon)

I wish I could help more lol,   I feel so sad for what you're going through  &*(

[Lol]

Thanks Zaf. I appreciate you saying that. I could just cry a river. 

[Zaf]

I'm not surprised  

Please do make sure you look after yourself as the last thing you need is to go down with depression after all this stress and grief

xx