How are you feeling today?

[Zaf]

You'll get there Alstare :)

[Bexwa]

I feel like complete crap today. Thought I'd have a nice night with my friends last night, turned out to be a giant bust. Now I just feel stupid. And on the verge of tears. Today is not a good day!

[Alstare1974]

Wanna tell us why last night was a bust?

[smirfy21]

 !"! climbing the bleedin walls today so much for lots of sleep and a relaxing weekend. why is it that my mind and body are playing opposites on me?
smirfy

[Zaf]

I think you need to go with the flow smirfy, our bodies and brains seem determined to disrupt our intentions sometimes


I planned to lay in this morning but unable to sleep again, grumbling IBS isnt helping but I'm determined to get out for my walk if I dont need to stay close to the loo!

[hairyyahoo]

managed to get into a stable frame of mind through breathing meditation and am holding onto it through sheer force of will and bloody mindedness. i can feel the negativity bubbling just below the surface though, and i reckon it's gonna take some kind of hurculian effort to keep it there. creative distraction shall be today's watch word i think.

[Zaf]

I know what you mean about the negativity lurking just below the surface   keep strong xx

For the first time in years I sat in the field and just absorbed nature, watched the clouds and felt everything around me, I feel really peaceful now but incredibly tired

[Sam_95]

My friend came round last night which was really nice, but I ate after 9pm which messed up my "eating routine". I binged this morning and I think I'm going to purge later. I feel awful and I just want to stay at home and sleep for the rest of the day.

[Zaf]

Perhaps you should stay home and find something relaxing to do Sam?

xx

[Zaf]

I have actually felt happy today, I'm sitting here wondring how long it has been since I felt that emotion and to be honest I cant remember, even during the three or four months this spring I wasnt suffering from depression I realise I didnt actually feel happy, I think it must be several if not many years since I felt like his.

I'm pretty certain its unlikely to last but I know its possible to feel good and I need to continue working to keep the depression at bay, I want this feeling to stay, or at least to feel it from time to time to prove this isn't just a one off

[danbob]

hangover...... describes it all really ha ha..... im waiting for my mood to kick in though, feeling quite optimistic today :)

not down but not up either.... a nice happy medium for once

[hairyyahoo]

well that didn't last long. dear brain, please consider changing the record from time to time. thanks, hairy.

[Lol]

Zaf that's wonderful news! I'm SO pleased for you! What are you doing with your happy mood? It was all those trees you know!!! Well done!  :) :)

[Zaf]

Thanks lol :)

I've cooked myself a proper healthy lunch and now I'm sort of sitting luxuriating in the feeling of feeling good!  Yesterday I dug out my watercolours so I plan to go and have a few doodles with them, I dont think I've used them for many years despite still doing a bit of sketching occasionally, its weird how depression stops us doing even the things we enjoy.

I rather feel like shouting I'M HAPPY  from the rooftops but my neigbours will probably think I've gone mad!


PS   I do think it was the trees, I need to be out in nature and a huge thank you for everyone here that encouraged me to take the big step of walking up the lane yesterday

[Lol]

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh go ahead and do it!!!!!!!!! with a loudhailer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!