How many problems must one have to be on here? I don't even have depression at the moment and here I am. Are you miffed to find me here?
You of course don't feel strong, this is what I was trying to say the other day. Inside you feel weak and feel you don't have the strength to carry on, yet you do carry on and that my friend, is what I'm talking about.
Whether or not you think you should be admired is irrelavent, you are being admired and people wish to tell you that. It has nothing to do with what you want, it's how we feel.
We respect you because through everything you are coping with you are a lovely, lovely person and still take the time to help others to great effect. You have shown courage; something we have all felt we have lacked at one time or other. Perspective; again, something we lack all the time because we are so inside our own situations that we can't see the wood for the trees. Compassion; you've shown buckets of this, you understand and empathise and are gentle and non-judgemental in showing this. Sometimes you say something that ONLY YOU could possibly have understood about something and you have contributed greatly to everyones understanding of the facets of depression and other personality disorders.
You do struggle with work, but we are all relatively struggling with our own problems and understand how difficult it is to do so. Your self harming is a coping mechanism because of your struggle and because it's too much and has to manifest in another way to attempt to satisfy your dispair and it's part of you. Fpr me, and I don't think I'm alone here, these are just two of the MANY things about you that command such respect.
I really don't think you realise how important you are here. On the planet and in this forum. Imagine what you can do Cornish! look at the affect you have on people!
Please take care and stay here Cornish, You are very very important and I want you to stay. Please promise me as well.
i really didn't mean it in that way,im not disputing anyones right to be here, depression is sadly the least of my problems, well to me it is and i feel like i should be in a more specialized forum so that im not bothering anyone here with problems that that could never understand. but in those forums i just dont feel hmmmm i dunno, its like here im with friends, there im just another fellow sufferer
as stupid as this sounds and i feel very guilty for this, part of the reason i help is as a distraction. i really do care about you all and i would go to any length to help any of you, i know my life is going to be a lot shorter than most people due to a one of the illnesses and i accepted that quickly, at first i wanted to do as much good for other people as i could because i dont care about my self, i dont matter, there's no point in trying to be happy or to get better but if i can make some one else happy or help them though this cruel illness then i will do what i can. but im a failure, i spend a lot of time here as a distraction and i read EVERY post and do really try and respond to as many as i can but it is VERY rare that i ever have the strength to actually click that post button
well im very honored to be respected and admired then, thank you.
i would really like to make a promise but i really cant do it right now, after my promise is over with the psychologist i really dont know where to go from there but i have a very good (but very bad) idea and plans all laid out
What's EMDR Cornish? (sorry)
EMDR Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eye_movement_desensitization_and_reprocessingI know its probably impossible to convince you otherwise at the moment but you belong here as much as the rest of us xx
I just had to google EMDR, it sounds very scary and horrid, I think you're very brave even considering it but yet again it shows your strength and determination.
I know what you mean about feeling its too hard to keep fighting, try to tackle everything a minute at a time, sometimes its the only way
thanks zaf :)
i was very skeptical untill it started working and well its a VERY vivid experience of re liveing what happened
i do try
This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time
from the film fight club is something i think about a lot. on one hand i dont wish to waste any of my time but on the other hand i could just curl up, do nothing and just wait for the end.
Going to pack up the house tomorrow. Feel bit worried about it all. Ho hey.
as long as i dont get an emergency call out then feel free to ask for help if you need it as im not far away
