How are you feeling today?

[bookletters]

The beginning of the day was crap.... I haven't slept my normal deep relaxing sleep since beginning of July and it's making me feel discouraged.
Citalopram seem to be (finally) working though. First time on an SSRI (Efexor and a Tricyclic AD I used for years.... wonderful wonderful drugs which gave me many years of happiness!). I think because this is my first time on SSRI I don't "recognize" how the treatment is working. Took a long time to kick start but now I am able to eat twice a day, get out of bed and keep busy, read stuff, concentrate on TV, do gardening, socialize more, pick up the phone etc.... the world also seems less of a dark place.
I am not out of the woods yet and will ruminate and worry myself about the silliest thing but I feel less overwhelmed.
Hubby is telling me Channel 4 are showing a programme about MDMA as possible cure for depression Article here: http://www.guardian.co.uk/society/2012/sep/16/mdma-drug-experiment-channel-4

[Amanda]

am alone and have been all day, dont feel so good, crying a lot, been sick, scared i want to do something silly, dont know what to do with myself, feeling very panicy and frightened, need to not listen to the thoughts im having,  tried to call a friend, the only onw who knows the real me and she hasnt asnwered, want to be held until i get over this feeling and therres no one here

[PaulaJo]

Aw Amanda I'm sorry you're feeling awful. I hate that panicky feeling; felt it myself too.
You could call the Samaritans - I found they were great when I was at my worst and completely lost. Just so good to talk and let it all out.

[PaulaJo]

Amanda you can call Samaritans on 08457909090.
They are a non-religious organisation that takes calls from people in emotional / psychological distress.
It will give you a chance to talk to someone and distract you from the voices xx

[Amanda]

i think i will, dont want to listen to myself anymore, think im in bit of a pickle 

[PaulaJo]

Do give them a call. I've called them before on a few occassions and it was always such a relief.
Good luck, let us know how you're doing.
 %^%

[Amanda]

Someone really needs to be back here soon, I can't do this much more

[Sweetpea]

Amanda is anyone due home soon to be with you?  (((( hugs )))). S x x x x

[PaulaJo]

Amanda, are you OK? How are you doing?
 *)*

[Amanda]

Don't feel very ok, they are back now, done them dinner, i couldn't eat, just want to not get like this anymore, feels like there's a big knot in my chest, still feel panicky and weird, can't explain it very well

[Zaf]

The beginning of the day was crap.... I haven't slept my normal deep relaxing sleep since beginning of July and it's making me feel discouraged.
Citalopram seem to be (finally) working though. First time on an SSRI (Efexor and a Tricyclic AD I used for years.... wonderful wonderful drugs which gave me many years of happiness!). I think because this is my first time on SSRI I don't "recognize" how the treatment is working. Took a long time to kick start but now I am able to eat twice a day, get out of bed and keep busy, read stuff, concentrate on TV, do gardening, socialize more, pick up the phone etc.... the world also seems less of a dark place.
I am not out of the woods yet and will ruminate and worry myself about the silliest thing but I feel less overwhelmed.
Hubby is telling me Channel 4 are showing a programme about MDMA as possible cure for depression Article here: http://www.guardian.co.uk/society/2012/sep/16/mdma-drug-experiment-channel-4

Thanks for the link :)

I know this sounds a bit like pouring cold water on your improved feelings but try not to do too much to begin with now you're feeling an improvement

Z xx

[Zaf]

Don't feel very ok, they are back now, done them dinner, i couldn't eat, just want to not get like this anymore, feels like there's a big knot in my chest, still feel panicky and weird, can't explain it very well

It might be a panic attack Amanda, has anyone given you breathing exercises to help?

Z xx

[Amanda]

No

[Zaf]

Would you like me to suggest one or two methods to you?

Z xx

[Amanda]

Please