How are you feeling today?

[Zaf]

For some reason absolutely and utterly exhausted despite sleeping much of the afternoon so will get a very early night with some diazepam and hope I feel better in the morning.

[Sweetpea]

Hope you have a better nights sleep tonight Zaf.

S x

[Buttercup]

Hope you have a good nights sleep Zaf. I'm planning an early night too  :)

Love the new pic Shaz xxx

[woozywoo]

Had a parents evening tonight, which finished at 7pm, but went very well. Am now sitting preparing for tomorrows, when all i really want to do is sleep.

I have an assessment meeting tomorrow with the mental health centre for them to decide if i can see someone. I have done them before. But worried that i will be deemed 'not serious enough' to get some support even though i feel like i need it. Grrr....hate having to go back to the beginning and over the whole story when i need support! Its rubbish!

[Sweetpea]

Thanks Buttercup its one of my cats he's called Basil, I sound like Sybil Fawlty calling him in from the garden  . Hope you have a good nights sleep too.

Hope you get on ok tomorrow woozywoo and you get some help  &*(.

S x

[Buttercup]

Glad it went well today Woozywoo, hope it goes well tomorrow for you xxx

[cornish]

Had a bit of an odd conversation with my mum. I said "I'm going to ask head of year if I can change forms because I hate mine" and she said "tell her that your form tutor is part of your problems" so I said " what do you mean problems" and she said " well you know, they think you have problems don't they?" If she does know that there is something wrong with me why can't she just say it rather than being all cryptic about it?! Makes me cross x

how would you feel about talking to her about it.
mums have an instinct thingey, my mum knew something was wrong before i told her. might be worth a chat with her, i know its hard but it can help to have some support




im in a bad way at the moment. not sure what else to say.

[Alstare1974]

 I called my healthcare team yesterday to complain that I still done have a care worker after 4 months and no ones been arsed to return my call. I did have a cpn from the intermediate team but you can only be with them for a few months. I was supposed to be handed over to long term team and that was 4 months ago. I was supposed to get a group therapy thing but that's been cancelled after a conversation that happened behind my back. Only found out when I chased for the appointment. Bloody waste of time feel like no one in health service cares about me. Wouldn't mind but was highlighted as urgent due to suicide risk so god knows what would happen if I wasn't urgent.

[Pistol Pete]

hey man, you just gotta look out for yourself. keep on top of them.

don't give up

[Pistol Pete]

has the forum clock gone to a new time zone? appears about 7 hours slow 

[Ezel]

has the forum clock gone to a new time zone? appears about 7 hours slow 

Smf software is American software hence the time difference  %^% so if I ever work out how to change the time I will do it.

Feeling exhausted today.  I have problems sleeping at the best of times and should have allowed myself to sleep this afternoon.  We are out on Wednesday evenings so by the time we;ve walked the dogs and relaxed we end up having a late night.

[Pistol Pete]

ah......it all makes sense.....well the clock does if nothing else

[KateG]

Pistol Pete

You can change the clock in your settings, in the look and layout bit, just click auto detect and it should fix it. I was really confused that lots of people were posting really early in the morning. I thought everyone had insomnia like me......

Kate x

And today I feel a bit better because I found you all on this site. Knowing I'm not alone is a good feeling x

[Pistol Pete]

hey Kate,

thanks for that. glad you're feeling a bit better.

PP

[supportme]

I know it is really late, and no one is on, but I've felt really strange today. I've felt really guilty, and anxious. I feel like I keep upsetting my friends on here . I am a bad person? . I'm pretty scared about Saturday, I have to go to hospital to see a psychiatrist because I scored really high on the questionnaires they sent me before my CBT telephone consultation. I think they need me to stop thinking about death before than can offer me more treatment. But then that horrible voice is bullying me again. The voice has became my whole mind. She won. She tells me I am a fake and that I'm not actually ill. She tells me I won't ever become better, and tells me I shouldn't accept any treatment from anyone. She says I won't be able to cope with being happy and that I will just screw everything up.
I am terrified of getting better, because ill is all I have ever known. I have always been depressed, it's just now, that the pressures of uni have built up my body and mind refused to continue this battle, and now I have to face the full extent of years of sadness.

Is everyone on here excited about getting better? I am absolutely dreading it. I feel like I don't want to get better, because I will lose my identity .