How are you feeling today?

[CharleysAngel']

Feeling really tired, hate this cold weather. My hand is really aching from yesterdays self harm attempt. I didn't use scissors I found a much better way of doing it. I got a hair bobble with a metal bit on it, put my fingers inside it, held the metal bit and pulled it back as far as I could and then let go. It hurt but it felt good in a way. Its left me with black and blue knuckles though, everyone thought I had been in a fight.

I know I shouldn't do it, but thinking about it makes it hard not to, and this new method takes much less effort than cutting

[Got]

Have you sought help  concerning the self harm?

[CharleysAngel']

My mums on the phone to head of year now, AND SHE HAS KNOWN ALL ALONG!!!!

[Munchroom]

Your Mum has known all along?

I realise this-evening will be hard for you - try and stay as calm as you can and use us to vent if you need too - your Mum might say things she doesn't mean. We're all here for you xx

[Buttercup]

Icelolly, we're all here for you  &*(

[smirfy21]

My mums on the phone to head of year now, AND SHE HAS KNOWN ALL ALONG!!!!

Oh dear I thought that might be the case, they always seem to know its like a sixth sense.
This could well be a blessing in disguise so try and stay calm, just realise that now you will get the help you need and you don't have to keep trying to hide it, you can talk to your mum and hopefuly start repairing the broken bridges along the way.
I assume you and your mum are pretty frustrated at the moment but try not to worry to much its just part of the recovery process.
smirfy

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for you Icelolly.  Hope it goes ok with your mum,  Thinking of you.

S x

[Zaf]

You can let anything out that you need to here Icelolly &*(

[CharleysAngel']

She got a letter from the place that deal with counselling, only its not really that. Its a psychiatric (sp?) Hospital. She never told me she got the letter. She just had a go at me making out that I have made her look like a bad mother and that life throws &$%+ at us and we should just get on with it. She said that if I go down with root and get involved people will not think I'm all there and I won't ever get a job. She said my doctor has taken it too far and she should be the one going there. It went great, she's coming to my next doctors appointment, its going to be fun.

[Zaf]

Your mum has a very old fashioned view on depression IceLolly, my mum is the same and I gave up trying to explain to her, its more difficult for you as you live at home

When is your next doctors appointment?

xx

[CharleysAngel']

Next Tuesday. I knew she wouldn't understand, I'm annoyed at my head of year for not telling me she was going to call and that she told my mum that I cried. Seems I'm not allowed to keep anything private.

[Zaf]

I would be very cross too

[doublep]

Icelolly that sounds really frustrating for you... I wouldnt know what to say as my family understood me when they got told.

Hopefully she will come to terms with it, and realises that its the help you need and deserve xx

[Buttercup]

For you Icelolly &*(

I think you are being very brave, my mum still doesn't know what I'm going through because she won't understand, her views sound like your mum's. Xxx

[CharleysAngel']

She just makes me so angry, she doesn't get it at all. First its the doctors fault for 'blowing it out of proportion' I told my mum that she better not have a go at the GP because all she was trying to do was help. Ok so I don't need to go to a psychiatric hospital or whatever but it was the only option. The school wouldn't let me have counselling so what else could she do. Then its my fault, I make her sound like an idiot, but what she seems to forget is that this isn't about her, its about me. She was shouting at me going 'I don't know what you want me to do, what have you achieved out of all of this?' She didn't make any sense, its not really about achieveing anything it was about getting help and it all went wrong.