How are you feeling today?

[Zaf]

I could have written most of that oxocube, especially doing practice runs to go to places.  I was lucky when I returned to work that everyone was very kind and helpful, I hope you find the same xx

[Buttercup]

for you Glen  &*(

[smirfy21]

Had a bit of an odd conversation with my mum. I said "I'm going to ask head of year if I can change forms because I hate mine" and she said "tell her that your form tutor is part of your problems" so I said " what do you mean problems" and she said " well you know, they think you have problems don't they?" If she does know that there is something wrong with me why can't she just say it rather than being all cryptic about it?! Makes me cross x

Hey Ice Lolly don't be too hard on your mum, this is going to be hard for her to begin with. My mum pretty much did the same thing when she found out about my condition and she to spoke in cryptics but that was only because she was unsure what to say and didn't want to offend me in anyway.
I know it can be really frustrating and makes you cross but just try and understand this from her point of view aswell. Also if you feel that you need to change form tutors it is probably best you do because in the long run it really could end up contributing to how you feel.

sorry if it sounds like I am nagging but I really feel I can relate to how you feel at the moment and god knows I can deffinetally understand your frustration.
try being as open to your mum as possible and talk to her lots that way she won't feel like she has to be orquad around the subject.

hope you have a good week this week
smirfy

[CharleysAngel']

Hey Smirfy,

No I don't think your nagging me at all, I kind of thought that afterwards, you know that I am sort of doing the same but not being honest and dropping hints and things like that. I don't even know if that was what she was getting at all, she might have been talking about something different. But it made me think that maybe she won't be as shocked as I thought when the school calls to tell her about my illness. I will just have to wait and see.

Hugs for you Glen, Ill be thinking of you xx

[Zaf]

Got an early night, slept well, woke 4am feeling very tired but reasonably positive so far

[Buttercup]

Cold seems a bit better this morning. Tossed and turned all night but got back to sleep straight away so a better night than recently.
Meeting a friend for coffee later, which is good but makes me anxious.

[Sweetpea]

Not too bad today, have councelling at lunchtime, not so anxious this week, which is good.  Then meeting a friend for coffee later this afternoon.

Wish the snow would dissapear though.

Hope everyone else has a good day.

S x

[Pete]

Today I woke around 30mins ago after having a few hours sleep, probably due to the 16hrs I had the night before. Snow is still here so its a good excuse not to go out but really I'm anxious about what went on this last week and what I may have did and who saw me etc. I'd be happy to never leave the house again. Feel sinking again , sad? Depressed? Grief? I dunno anymore I just want peace, peace in my life, peace for my family but mostly just peace in my head. Too much buzzing thoughts already.....another day like this.....not really welcomed. This time last year, apart from sitting at my sisters bedside knowing she was losing her battle with cancer I was so positive about everything. Now it seems so long ago and just a distant memory that will never again come. An old friend lost at sea, will I ever again meet me? Hmmm fingers crossed!!

[Hungry Hippo]

I'm having a good day so far,but it's still early. :)

[Glen53]

 &*( for you all today, if only to keep you warm.

Thankyou all for your kind words, they mean a lot to me and keep me going.  :)

[CharleysAngel']

Tired and I have done something to my bottom lip. It started hurting after I brushed my teeth this morning so I think I might have just caught it. Its swollen on one side and it stings so much! Like everytime I move it let alone eat or drink something

[Zaf]

Ouch &*(

[CharleysAngel']

I am laying here now I am thinking about self harm. I think about it a lot but I have only ever done it once. I have tried several times since then but it can never make myself bleed. Even now I still have times often when I really want to hurt myself but I am too scared of hurting myself now, I do not have the energy to go through with it, I find it so hard to do. My doctor does know that I have thought about doing it but not that I actually have done it once.

I don't really know what this means, does it mean that my depression is not that bad? I don't really understand it much and I haven't spoken about it with anyone except my doctor and even then I wasn't exactly honest.

[Ezel]

((((IceLollyx))))

[supportme]

I feel frightened today.