How are you feeling today?

[Holykimura]

Hi all I hope you are all having good days. I'm doing ok this week with the help of my little friends (diazepam).  Speak to you all on Friday x

[cornish]

Question- what do you do when you lose all self confidence, what do you do when you cannot get out of bed in the morning, what do you do when you lose all interest in life, what do you do when even picking up a paint brush  or taking a photograph becomes a struggle, what do you do when you realize that you cannot physically remember the last time you were happy?

smirfy

i know the feeling far too well, other than the painting and photo taking stuff

i still cant remember when i was truly happy

many things come to my mind but the only sensible thing i can really say is get your self to your gp, or speak to some one from the mental health team.  failing that keep coming on here, we will all do our best to support and help you in any way that we can








well today hasn't been the best,  got told that i look like the grim reaper as i had a black hoodie on. the got told that having the hood up is like wearing a hat indoors and it rude. ive worn a hoodie to work every day for well since i left work, it was bloody cold in the workshop and i just feel safer when i have my hood up, it restricts my side view so and i dont see things out of the corner of my eye when its just a bit of black fabric there. but anyway back to my point, i lost it with the bloke who said about it, i know i shouldn't have but i was really not in the mood today and i cant see that im doing any harm having a hood up inside the workshop where virtually no one comes in, no customers ever come in and im alone for at least 75% of the day when im building control panels.  ok ive gone off subject again.  the bloke is a bit of a "£$%"£$%^& and just likes to cause problems for me, he started saying it was disrespectful and i should take the hood down and not be allowed to wear one and back in his day he would have given me a kicking,  well i lost it then, well its not your time any more you stupid old £$^&£ its now my time and i dont really give a *£$%*&£ what you think so piss off. that set him off with young people being dis respectful. my response was think that a load of rubbish, i treat people how they treat me and just because your old it doesn't mean you automatically deserve respect, you have to gain it and you've done nothing to do that.  

ok ive just gone into a rant and will stop now.  im very tempted to just delete all of that as it makes me look bad, but i give people the respect they deserve and thats it, respect needs to be earned in my opinion and i have tried my best to get on with the bloke who causes a lot of problems for me at work but i lost all patience with him a while ago.

my boss has no problem with the hoodie and the hood or if im wearing a hat normally come off in the snack room or office and the boss is fine with that.  well tomorrow im going to wear a hat and put the hood up while in the workshop, if he says anything the hood comes off and then i still have the hat.  little bit of silent protest. will probably cause more problems but im too stubborn to just let it go and now i think the delusional of being karma is coming back again.  starting thinking a lot about it again today, oh well he deserves it.

i was feeling crap before all of that too

[Got]

Question- what do you do when you lose all self confidence, what do you do when you cannot get out of bed in the morning, what do you do when you lose all interest in life, what do you do when even picking up a paint brush  or taking a photograph becomes a struggle, what do you do when you realise that you cannot physically remember the last time you were happy?

smirfy

You're going through a lot. Have you been back to the doctors and told them how bad you have got? I have been going this way of feeling recently, I am not sure if I have any advice, other than just keep going. Its horrible when it happens.

[Lol]

Question- what do you do when you lose all self confidence, what do you do when you cannot get out of bed in the morning, what do you do when you lose all interest in life, what do you do when even picking up a paint brush  or taking a photograph becomes a struggle, what do you do when you realise that you cannot physically remember the last time you were happy?

smirfy

Smirfy this is an awful way to feel. You are feeling really low and have no confidence or self esteem. It is so difficult to feal like this.
I think the advice you have had so far is exactly what you should do. Make sure a professional knows and try to talk about it as much as you can. You have felt like this before, and you have felt better, that means that you can and will feel better again.

Is there anything in particular that triggered this? How long have you been feeling like this? I'm really glad you came in here and told us. Please keep posting, I'm thinking of you and am here for support if it helps  :)

[Lol]

Cornish this dude sounds like a d^*&. It is rude of him to voice his judgement over your attire. Particularly as he knows you find things difficult I would imagine it is a more sensible conlusion to come to that you have a reason for wanting to wear you hoodie up, not that it's any of his business anyway, than are automatically rude and some sort of gang member. And how respectful does he think he is being in saying he would give you a kicking???? I simply dn't understand people like this.

As for when to give people respect - my personal ethos is to treat everyone with automatic respect unless they do something which causes me to re evaluate that. Either way this man has plunged head first into no respect with not a lot of opportunity for back tracking!

Are you able to tell him that you wear your hood up because you suffer from xy&z and it helps you to stay focussed in what can sometimes be a very confusing and infuriating world. That should knock the wind out of his sales! What a plonker.

I hope you have a better day tomorrow. Don't go too karma on his ass or you might end up getting yourself into trouble instead!

[Got]

He offered to give you a kicking? What a prick. Sounds like someone needs whey protein putting in his tea.

[cornish]

i have the same sort of view on respect as you, i didn't really put that across in the last post

dont worry lol, when im in "karma" mode im very careful and selective about what and when i do something.  dunno if i should really be saying this but i think the karma level that he's reached deserves real punishment, i feel the need to dish it out but i know i cant, im just worried that i might loose my stubbornness and weird morals to keep me from doing something stupid
 he's just generally an a****le and no one likes him at work, the boss is trying to get a valid reason to get rid of him i think, he's so lazy as well its just annoying as hell

He offered to give you a kicking? What a prick. Sounds like someone needs whey protein putting in his tea.

he doesn't have milk in his tea  it was the other bloke who is like it too that still gets a bit put in his powdered milk sometimes.

[smirfy21]

Question- what do you do when you lose all self confidence, what do you do when you cannot get out of bed in the morning, what do you do when you lose all interest in life, what do you do when even picking up a paint brush  or taking a photograph becomes a struggle, what do you do when you realise that you cannot physically remember the last time you were happy?

smirfy

Smirfy this is an awful way to feel. You are feeling really low and have no confidence or self esteem. It is so difficult to feal like this.
I think the advice you have had so far is exactly what you should do. Make sure a professional knows and try to talk about it as much as you can. You have felt like this before, and you have felt better, that means that you can and will feel better again.

Is there anything in particular that triggered this? How long have you been feeling like this? I'm really glad you came in here and told us. Please keep posting, I'm thinking of you and am here for support if it helps  :)

I am not sure if anything really triggered this, I have been feeling like this for about four weeks now but its been getting progressively worse since being back at uni due to the stress, so I guess that is my trigger.
I have an appointment next week with my GP and will be telling her that she can't wait for me to be seen by the mental health team before changing my meds because they have completely worn off, they just dont have any affect anymore. it is like I am on no meds what so ever anymore and I just want it all to end. I think once I tell her that she will take action immediatelly.

todays mood was triggered by a one to one tutorial with my uni tutor, I had nothing new to show her, no inspiration and was just generally crap and it showes in the work I have been producing its like I have artist block. She was like so whats this all about, are you struggling, why are you producing work like this, I think you need to go see the uni councellor. I left feeling really angry with myself, frustrated and confused as to where to go next and how to get back my productivity and inspiration towards my artwork.

I am really buisy for the next couple of days so at least I will have people around me and I won't have a chance to mope and do something silly

thanks for all your advice guys
smurfy

[Lol]

Smirfy stress at uni must be a major factor. It is very frustrating to suffer from any kind of block and I sense that at the moment the stress is outweighing the benefits of your medication which is so difficult for you. Could you bring your GP appointment forward?

[Lol]

Cornish your boss is trying to find a valid reason to get rid of him?!?!?! How about bullying and harrassment in the work place!! 

Hope you have a better day today. I hope Karma bites him in the ass (subtley  )

[BladeRunner]

Man is this all ever crappy    Why can't something work out right, why do I do it all the wrong way

[Lol]

What do you feel is going wrong at the moment Bladerunner?

[smirfy21]

Smirfy stress at uni must be a major factor. It is very frustrating to suffer from any kind of block and I sense that at the moment the stress is outweighing the benefits of your medication which is so difficult for you. Could you bring your GP appointment forward?

well I am ultra buisy until tuesday now so bringing my GP appointment forward is tricky fitting it round my hours, but to be honest I only have to wait until thursday.

I have had an ok day today, I think that being to buisy to think has been good.

How are you doing
smurfy

[dlg78]

well today hasn't been the best,  got told that i look like the grim reaper as i had a black hoodie on. the got told that having the hood up is like wearing a hat indoors and it rude. ive worn a hoodie to work every day for well since i left work, it was bloody cold in the workshop and i just feel safer when i have my hood up, it restricts my side view so and i dont see things out of the corner of my eye when its just a bit of black fabric there. but anyway back to my point, i lost it with the bloke who said about it, i know i shouldn't have but i was really not in the mood today and i cant see that im doing any harm having a hood up inside the workshop where virtually no one comes in, no customers ever come in and im alone for at least 75% of the day when im building control panels.  ok ive gone off subject again.  the bloke is a bit of a "£$%"£$%^& and just likes to cause problems for me, he started saying it was disrespectful and i should take the hood down and not be allowed to wear one and back in his day he would have given me a kicking,  well i lost it then, well its not your time any more you stupid old £$^&£ its now my time and i dont really give a *£$%*&£ what you think so piss off. that set him off with young people being dis respectful. my response was think that a load of rubbish, i treat people how they treat me and just because your old it doesn't mean you automatically deserve respect, you have to gain it and you've done nothing to do that.  

ok ive just gone into a rant and will stop now.  im very tempted to just delete all of that as it makes me look bad, but i give people the respect they deserve and thats it, respect needs to be earned in my opinion and i have tried my best to get on with the bloke who causes a lot of problems for me at work but i lost all patience with him a while ago.

my boss has no problem with the hoodie and the hood or if im wearing a hat normally come off in the snack room or office and the boss is fine with that.  well tomorrow im going to wear a hat and put the hood up while in the workshop, if he says anything the hood comes off and then i still have the hat.  little bit of silent protest. will probably cause more problems but im too stubborn to just let it go and now i think the delusional of being karma is coming back again.  starting thinking a lot about it again today, oh well he deserves it.

i was feeling crap before all of that too

Some people will never like the fact that these days "hoodies" are very popular clothing, they see them as a symbol of crime and cannot accept that "normal" people wear them.

Next time try to be calm and tell him to take it up with his line manager, and smile - that will have far greater effect than getting wound up which is more than likely what his end game was in the first place.

Unless your employer tells you otherwise you are entitled to wear what you want - our company does not allow hoods simply for reasons of safety as fork lifts are driving around constantly and you need to be aware of your surroundings, but if this isnt an issue at your place of work then it shouldn't be a problem.

[Munchroom]

Im so tired of feeling so tired all the time  My eyes are constantly so sore, like I've been up all night and yet when I close them to try and get some rest, they hurt even more! 

feeling like I'm struggling uphill....