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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2070 on: November 22, 2011, 10:45:46 AM »
I consider what most of you are going through and think all I do is moan about what is, at the moment, very slight, depression, and it makes me feel guilty

I feel the same myself :(


its very normal to have those symptoms as part of depression unfortunately,  I'm on Citralopram and normally it improves the emotionless, tiredness and insomnia I suffer from but if you are at all worried please do go back to see your GP

I'm gonna keep at it and see if the citalopram sorts me out over time... In a way, I'm releived about feeling this numb at the moment, but I feel like I am masking what needs to come out, which is never a good thing   :-X

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2071 on: November 22, 2011, 12:24:35 PM »
As yet I haven't slept :-(

Since when Alstare? That sounds frustrating  :(

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2072 on: November 22, 2011, 12:42:56 PM »
i still went to work,  haven't slept,  just realized ive run out of medication and took the last of it earlier, just feel really paranoid and anxious about the nhs now, dont trust them any more
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2073 on: November 22, 2011, 12:56:13 PM »
why do you think that cornish?
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2074 on: November 22, 2011, 01:30:52 PM »
not really feeling like talking about any of this.  going to force my self to go to my gp in a bit, dont want to but i know i need my meds :(
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2075 on: November 22, 2011, 02:05:51 PM »
no problem,  hope you get your meds sorted out OK xx
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2076 on: November 22, 2011, 02:50:46 PM »
Sorry you are feeling like this Cornish. I hope it went ok at your GP and you got your meds ok. It;s ok that you don't feel like talking but if you do you know we are here for you.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2077 on: November 22, 2011, 03:09:33 PM »
I've started feeling quite paranoid that the holiday is going to be a disaster,  I cant keep it out of my mind that we are going to arrive to find it all locked up and no keyholder to be found - no idea why, perhaps becaus I'm looking forward to it so much?
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2078 on: November 22, 2011, 05:12:14 PM »
I am soo bloody exhausted all the time and I am fed up, slightly angry and extremely tired.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2079 on: November 22, 2011, 05:53:07 PM »
I've started feeling quite paranoid that the holiday is going to be a disaster,  I cant keep it out of my mind that we are going to arrive to find it all locked up and no keyholder to be found - no idea why, perhaps becaus I'm looking forward to it so much?

im sure it will all go fine my dear


well the chemist wouldn't give me all of my prescription because it is potentially dangerous to my health due to the dosages being so high but they would give me some of it.   oh i was not happy, stayed calm and i just took what they would give me and walked out after saying i wasn't happy about it. going to call my gp tomorrow
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2080 on: November 22, 2011, 06:04:05 PM »
I'm sure it will but you know how our minds make up silly things  ::)

that seems rather daft if the doctor has written out the prescription for that amount,  dont blame you for being annoyed (and well done for not hitting the roof), I would have been really cross too  >:(
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2081 on: November 22, 2011, 06:22:39 PM »
I've started feeling quite paranoid that the holiday is going to be a disaster,  I cant keep it out of my mind that we are going to arrive to find it all locked up and no keyholder to be found - no idea why, perhaps becaus I'm looking forward to it so much?

im sure it will all go fine my dear


well the chemist wouldn't give me all of my prescription because it is potentially dangerous to my health due to the dosages being so high but they would give me some of it.   oh i was not happy, stayed calm and i just took what they would give me and walked out after saying i wasn't happy about it. going to call my gp tomorrow

Oh no Cornish this was something you didn't need today  :(. The chemist doesn't necessarily know that you can be trusted wth such quantities or medication. It isn't personal. Others might not be as trustworthy as you. Any dispensing clinician has a duty of care regarding amounts and dosages that leave their/or others premises and due to a lot of red tape and countless instances of people abusing their own or other peoples medication, know to be vigelant as they could be perceived to be ultimately accountable if you abused it. I am a dispensing clinician and the amount of people thinking they know better or 'trying this and trying that' are so common and cause so many unforeseen problems to themselves and others that it really doesn't bare thinking about. There are also those who save up medication such as yours and sell them on the black market. More than you would imagine. The reception and advice you received is standard and not at all personal. In your case I can see that this was simply just something that is adding to your problems at the moment and this is very stressful for you, something you could really do without.

I can understand why you don't trust the NHS at the moment. However, I believe your psychocltherapist is NHS? If I haven't got that wrong, don't forget you respect and trust her, and she respects and cares and very much trusts you. You have definitely been wronged by the NHS, things that should never have happened. Agreed. You have received some good treatment and service though, not to mention your many prescriptions. You need and deserve the best and most attentive treatment available Cornish,. I wish you could get it. all I can do in the mean time is offer a friendly, understanding, BRAVE, non-jugdgemental ear if you should need one.

Hope your evening is OK. Post if you can. Take Care. Lol

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2082 on: November 22, 2011, 06:28:41 PM »
I've started feeling quite paranoid that the holiday is going to be a disaster,  I cant keep it out of my mind that we are going to arrive to find it all locked up and no keyholder to be found - no idea why, perhaps becaus I'm looking forward to it so much?

Oh Zaf, it will be absolutely lovely  ::). There is no logical reason to think this and I'm sure it wont happen. I think you're right, you're looking forward to it so much that you have started to 'prepare yourself for the worse' which is SUCH a symtom of a long suffering depressive mind. Don't you worry. Everything is waiting for you. You will have a lovely, relaxing, long deserved time and come back and tell us all about it.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2083 on: November 22, 2011, 06:41:29 PM »
I'm sure it will but you know how our minds make up silly things  ::)

that seems rather daft if the doctor has written out the prescription for that amount,  dont blame you for being annoyed (and well done for not hitting the roof), I would have been really cross too  >:(

well if anything goes wrong then who ever causes it will have me to deal with then :)


oh i almost hit the roof, i stopped and thought about it, i just thought well if i kick off they might not let me have any, some is better than none


I've started feeling quite paranoid that the holiday is going to be a disaster,  I cant keep it out of my mind that we are going to arrive to find it all locked up and no keyholder to be found - no idea why, perhaps becaus I'm looking forward to it so much?

im sure it will all go fine my dear


well the chemist wouldn't give me all of my prescription because it is potentially dangerous to my health due to the dosages being so high but they would give me some of it.   oh i was not happy, stayed calm and i just took what they would give me and walked out after saying i wasn't happy about it. going to call my gp tomorrow

Oh no Cornish this was something you didn't need today  :(. The chemist doesn't necessarily know that you can be trusted wth such quantities or medication. It isn't personal. Others might not be as trustworthy as you. Any dispensing clinician has a duty of care regarding amounts and dosages that leave their/or others premises and due to a lot of red tape and countless instances of people abusing their own or other peoples medication, know to be vigelant as they could be perceived to be ultimately accountable if you abused it. I am a dispensing clinician and the amount of people thinking they know better or 'trying this and trying that' are so common and cause so many unforeseen problems to themselves and others that it really doesn't bare thinking about. There are also those who save up medication such as yours and sell them on the black market. More than you would imagine. The reception and advice you received is standard and not at all personal. In your case I can see that this was simply just something that is adding to your problems at the moment and this is very stressful for you, something you could really do without.

I can understand why you don't trust the NHS at the moment. However, I believe your psychocltherapist is NHS? If I haven't got that wrong, don't forget you respect and trust her, and she respects and cares and very much trusts you. You have definitely been wronged by the NHS, things that should never have happened. Agreed. You have received some good treatment and service though, not to mention your many prescriptions. You need and deserve the best and most attentive treatment available Cornish,. I wish you could get it. all I can do in the mean time is offer a friendly, understanding, BRAVE, non-jugdgemental ear if you should need one.

Hope your evening is OK. Post if you can. Take Care. Lol

one of the reasons for weekly/ bi weekly prescriptions was due to me abusing the diazepam, i didn't really see it as abusing it at the time as it was really helping but it got to a point where i was addicted and spoke to my gp about it, was bloody hard admitting that i had a problem with it and knowing that they could stop the meds but with the gp's help i kicked the habit but im still addicted to them, im just stubborn about taking them now.   i think the other reason is that my dosages change fairly often an they need to check up on me a lot. i dont really think i can be trusted with all these meds, fairly often im tempted to overdose but theres still one week and a day till my promise is over.
   i have to admit i have given a few diazepam to an bloke who works in an electrical wholesalers as he was really stressed out.  not sure that 2 2mg tablets given to some one really counts as black market though and yes i know i shouldn't have but i really felt sorry for him and wanted to help.

i understand that now but at the time i wasn't really thinking rationally, just though i need what i can get and just get out of there

yeah my psychologist does work for the nhs but im seeing her privately, as the solicitors are paying for it and there is a far shorted waiting list.  it just feels different to me as its not though the nhs

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #2084 on: November 22, 2011, 06:57:16 PM »
thanks guys, I know I'm being silly but the thoughts wont leave me at the moment  ::)

I know what you mean cornish, the counsellor I saw last time works for the NHS, privately and also does volunteer counselling somewhere in the city,  I went privately so I didnt have to wait weeks and it didnt feel like it was NHS either
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