I'm sure it will but you know how our minds make up silly things 
that seems rather daft if the doctor has written out the prescription for that amount, dont blame you for being annoyed (and well done for not hitting the roof), I would have been really cross too 
well if anything goes wrong then who ever causes it will have me to deal with then :)
oh i almost hit the roof, i stopped and thought about it, i just thought well if i kick off they might not let me have any, some is better than none
I've started feeling quite paranoid that the holiday is going to be a disaster, I cant keep it out of my mind that we are going to arrive to find it all locked up and no keyholder to be found - no idea why, perhaps becaus I'm looking forward to it so much?
im sure it will all go fine my dear
well the chemist wouldn't give me all of my prescription because it is potentially dangerous to my health due to the dosages being so high but they would give me some of it. oh i was not happy, stayed calm and i just took what they would give me and walked out after saying i wasn't happy about it. going to call my gp tomorrow
Oh no Cornish this was something you didn't need today 
. The chemist doesn't necessarily know that you can be trusted wth such quantities or medication. It isn't personal. Others might not be as trustworthy as you. Any dispensing clinician has a duty of care regarding amounts and dosages that leave their/or others premises and due to a lot of red tape and countless instances of people abusing their own or other peoples medication, know to be vigelant as they could be perceived to be ultimately accountable if you abused it. I am a dispensing clinician and the amount of people thinking they know better or 'trying this and trying that' are so common and cause so many unforeseen problems to themselves and others that it really doesn't bare thinking about. There are also those who save up medication such as yours and sell them on the black market. More than you would imagine. The reception and advice you received is standard and not at all personal. In your case I can see that this was simply just something that is adding to your problems at the moment and this is very stressful for you, something you could really do without.
I can understand why you don't trust the NHS at the moment. However, I believe your psychocltherapist is NHS? If I haven't got that wrong, don't forget you respect and trust her, and she respects and cares and very much trusts you. You have definitely been wronged by the NHS, things that should never have happened. Agreed. You have received some good treatment and service though, not to mention your many prescriptions. You need and deserve the best and most attentive treatment available Cornish,. I wish you could get it. all I can do in the mean time is offer a friendly, understanding, BRAVE, non-jugdgemental ear if you should need one.
Hope your evening is OK. Post if you can. Take Care. Lol
one of the reasons for weekly/ bi weekly prescriptions was due to me abusing the diazepam, i didn't really see it as abusing it at the time as it was really helping but it got to a point where i was addicted and spoke to my gp about it, was bloody hard admitting that i had a problem with it and knowing that they could stop the meds but with the gp's help i kicked the habit but im still addicted to them, im just stubborn about taking them now. i think the other reason is that my dosages change fairly often an they need to check up on me a lot. i dont really think i can be trusted with all these meds, fairly often im tempted to overdose but theres still one week and a day till my promise is over.
i have to admit i have given a few diazepam to an bloke who works in an electrical wholesalers as he was really stressed out. not sure that 2 2mg tablets given to some one really counts as black market though and yes i know i shouldn't have but i really felt sorry for him and wanted to help.
i understand that now but at the time i wasn't really thinking rationally, just though i need what i can get and just get out of there
yeah my psychologist does work for the nhs but im seeing her privately, as the solicitors are paying for it and there is a far shorted waiting list. it just feels different to me as its not though the nhs
