How are you feeling today?

[Munchroom]

Well done for staying calm lovely. It was a horrible and unexpected situation to find yourself in, but you handled it well and as Lol quite rightly points out, those that dispense medication hold a huge responsibility for if something untoward was to happen, it was certainly nothing out of the ordinary. My Dad had it a couple of weeks ago with a prescription for an injection that his Gp had given him, my dad has been injecting insulin since before I  was born! So the doc knew he would be fine with it, but the pharmacist wouldn't be doing their job properly if they didn't at least question it xx

[Lol]

Cornish I'm glad you can see it rationally now, and also see your own potential to abuse it! You are certainly one of the vigalent ones!!!! Now that you know the frequency to expect of going to the chemist it will feel different, but being told no when you least expect it brings out the temper in the best of people!

Guys I can see what you are saying about seeing NHS personell privately feeling different, I'm so glad you are both seeing people you trust, however you are getting that.  :)

[Alstare1974]

Wonder if I'll manage to sleep tonight, spent most of day asleep so I doubt it. I need to sort.

[Got]

Same here mate....same here.  "£$

[cornish]

thanks ney, looking back now that ive calmed down a lot.... with the aid of diazepam i think i was more frustrated than angry,  i need my meds why wont you let me have them.

Cornish I'm glad you can see it rationally now, and also see your own potential to abuse it! You are certainly one of the vigalent ones!!!! Now that you know the frequency to expect of going to the chemist it will feel different, but being told no when you least expect it brings out the temper in the best of people!

Guys I can see what you are saying about seeing NHS personnel privately feeling different, I'm so glad you are both seeing people you trust, however you are getting that.  :)

stopping the abuse was me being stubborn more than anything

ive only got one more session with my psychologist now though, unless more have been authorized.

ive been going regularly for ages now

also looking back it was a different chemist in there today, the normal one now knows me by name and seems to understand what im going though and just makes it easy for me, she hardly talks and just makes the whole thing as quick as possible. i think she's noticed the amount of meds im on and the constant high dosages, but now i have 4 different items at dosages at or above the "safe" limits and the new person doesn't know my history or well i dunno



im either getting worse or building up resistances to meds as they dont work after a while and dosages just go up n up and i hate it. i do notice times when im "up" but there only near when my new meds or dosage increases take effect and then a little while late im down.
spoke to my gp about this after being told my dosage of seroquel was going up again  > *() and he said that the medication specialist that im seeing is really good and knows what he's doing, im starting to doubt that, my paranoia about the nhs is getting worse. i get worse, i get more meds, i get to really high levels then get worse, then i change meds and it all starts again.




i used to know that feeling so well but i had to be up every morning for work, with or without sleep.   now im in the opposite situation, i take my meds, i pass out and struggle to wake up, then i have to struggle to actually get up.

[Lol]

Cornish I know it's the last thing you feel you can do, but with all the medication that you are exhausting the only avenue you can change is opening up and talking about it all. I'm glad you are seeing some one you trust that is helping you to do this. I hope you get some more appointments scheduled soon. Although I thought you said you were seeing her privately? Can this not continue if so? You are fighting hard Cornish and doing so well. It doesn't feel like it to you but you amaze me with your courage (or stubbornness call it what you will).

Take Care. Lol

[cornish]

 It's privately through the solicitors and there really slow at getting things sorted

[Laura]

Wonder if I'll manage to sleep tonight, spent most of day asleep so I doubt it. I need to sort.

I'm glad it's not just me. My body clock is all over the place. I've on;y had about 6 hours each night for the last few days. Last week I was sleeping all day and up all night. It's a good job I don't have work to go to.

[Lol]

It's privately through the solicitors and there really slow at getting things sorted

That's because they drink so much coffee and spend so much time taking so many clients out on expensive lunches!   

[BladeRunner]

Dammit, wanted to pay a visit to my new workplace today (I'm really anxious about the new job at the moment), but when I wanted to go out, I realised I had once again bought trousers in the wrong size despite trying them on in the store  I hope I can return them, but that all gets me pretty down now and I don't really feel like leaving the house

[Lol]

Oh no bladerunner is it so disheartening when things like this happen. Do you have any other trousers you can wear?

[smirfy21]

Question- what do you do when you lose all self confidence, what do you do when you cannot get out of bed in the morning, what do you do when you lose all interest in life, what do you do when even picking up a paint brush  or taking a photograph becomes a struggle, what do you do when you realise that you cannot physically remember the last time you were happy?

smirfy

[Zaf]

I rest and more rest and talk about things in here that usually helps a lot :)

[Zaf]

First day of holiday, got anxious this morning but now feel tired but peaceful :)

[smirfy21]

everything is wrong, I can't do this anymore