Will my life ever change?

[lostmyway]

I have used them before , but they tend to be a bit unreliable

[Amanda_George]

Might be worth approaching a couple just in case something comes up and you'll be able to get money in the bank too!   

[lostmyway]

I wonder at 18 I knew what I knew now, how my life was going to turn out? I probably would have ended up in the loonie bin or worse. Sounds like a joke, but there is a serious underlying message in there.  I don't honestly feel any better than I did in 2013.

[Amanda_George]

How would you feel about really letting rip in a letter to your GP?  Let it all out to him or her?  Are you on any meds - how would you feel about starting/changing them?  Are you seeing a counsellor or psychologist or anything like that?  If not, how would you feel about asking for a referral?

I've been where you are and things can get better, it just takes a long time is all     ::

[lostmyway]

I take Escitalopram, which supposedly takes the edge off the symptoms.  I have done the things already that you have mentioned, and it wasn't much help.  One nurse said " you are just unhappy with your lot in life."  I'm like yeah really, that answers a lot and why I am here in the first place!  4 years of medical training to state the obvious.  The truth is, there aren't any simple answers.

[Amanda_George]

Could you be referred to someone else?  Do you have a CPN?  It sounds like they aren't supporting you like they should be   

[lostmyway]

Nah, I'm not going down that road again. There seems no point to me.   To get some patronising GP to tell me what I already know in the 1st place? no thanks.

[Amanda_George]

How about support over the phone or seeing a different GP or something like that?  You aren't alone and the right treatment is out there for you... you just need to keep on keeping on and not give up despite the lack of support   

[Pip]

Hearing unhelpful words from a nurse isn't going to help you in the slightest.  I've been very fortunate over the years with doctors surgeries being helpful and supportive except for one.  She was Asian, didn't believe in depression and wouldn't prescribe anti-depressants.  I stopped going to that surgery and didn't see a doctor for about 10 months until we moved.

[lostmyway]

How can you not believe in depression, when there is a lot of scientific evidence that says the opposite?

[lostmyway]

One of the main reasons is the lack of sustainable income from a decent job that allows me to move on and become independent, and feel trapped by the current situation. My inability to change that drives me to the edge of reason.  I don't need a nurse or GP to tell me that, I have enough intelligence of my own to figure it out.

[Amanda_George]

I don't know what to say to help, Lost, so I'll just offer you a  if you want it?

[lostmyway]

You just have to fight through it by yourself sometimes.

[Amanda_George]

Yup!  BTDT meself!  You can do it though, Lost, and the forum will be here for you whenever you need us!

[lostmyway]

I think I have reached the very end of my tether... this is the end.. I simply cannot live this anymore at the age of 47.  It's beyond a joke.  No independence, no job, no money, no friends, no relationship.. no nothing.



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