New here, wanted to explain the problems I've been having.

[Ice Maiden]

You can do without friends like that

[kutuup]

Thanks guys, I did have a good day today :) I introduced my cat to my rabbit and played with them running around the garden Turns out my cat loves to play with the rabbit and my rabbit has a great time running around playing with her. They run all over and chase each other and grapple each other and have a ton of fun XD I had to break it up when it got a little too rough a couple of times but they seemed to learn the limits pretty quick and how to play without hurting each other :) After I put the rabbit back in his hutch the cat was hanging around outside and they actually licked each other through the bars of the hutch I'll let them out to play again tomorrow. It seems like they have great fun together as long as I'm there to supervise and make sure they don't get too rough.

In other news, I started watching Daria on Netflix and absolutely loved it, sure she's a girl and I'm a guy, but I just love how the character is so cynical yet manages to be happy under it all. She's well aware that people in her life are annoying or uninteresting, yet she manages to make something positive from it anyway. I also like how Jane Lane is well aware that she's a little weird, but doesn't try to hide it, she just acts like herself and isn't driven by other people's opinion of her That and the show is really funny XD It kinda made me realise that you don't have to like everyone, a lot of people will grate on you, but there's always a community for you. As long as you make an effort with everyone, it doesn't really matter whether you like them or not. You will like some people and not like others, that doesn't make you bad, as long as you gave everyone a chance. I think a lot of my problem is not speaking up when I don't like people because it makes me feel bad for not liking them.

[stewart]

cat and a rabbit playing together, that would have been fun to watch

[kutuup]

Yeah, they're bloody weird lol sometimes the rabbit gets a little fresh with the cat but she won't put up with any of that so it's been an OK couple of days, I'm noticing the low moods are less frequent and less pronounced these days which is a big plus. There have been some things that have grated on me, but they haven't gotten me down so much, just wound me up. Like I do a podcast every week, and during the recording I noticed that one of the girls who occasionally does bits on it used to have a different surname though she isn't married, so I asked when she changed her name and she got kinda defensive and told me after that it was inappropriate to ask her that :S I don't get it, it was an innocent question. Is she really going to get tetchy with me because I don't know her whole life history and accidentally hit a sore point or something? Wouldn't a normal person just brush that off if they knew I didn't know their past? It's more inexplicable because I changed my name a few years ago, and she knows I did, and I don't care about telling people why I changed it, it's just not a big deal. It's not like I asked her to explain every detail, all I asked was "when did you change your name?". Hell, I once went on a date with a girl who admitted on the first date that her dad killed her mum since I was bound to find out about it anyway, I was a little shocked by it, but I prefer people who don't make their past a big secret and then get tetchy when you don't know about it. I don't mind if someone doesn't want to talk about something, but then don't get annoyed when I don't know about it! Grrr some people lol

I guess it just winds me up when people choose to be all mysterious about their past and then take offence when people accidentally say the wrong thing not knowing that they shouldn't have said what they did. Maybe I'm just really open? I don't know, but if someone asks me about my past, I'll tell them, it doesn't bother me. And I certainly won't get annoyed if they say something that offends me for reasons they have no idea about, if they did it on purpose knowing it would upset me, that's a different story. I just think people keep too many secrets and you're constantly treading on eggshells with people, well, the ones I seem to be around all the time anyway :S

Grrr lol some people eh?

PS. I changed my name because I was bullied as a kid and wanted to start over and make a new identity for myself, like so I could think "I've changed, that wasn't me, that was someone else." That's how I dealt with it at the time. I don't mind telling anyone that.

[Michael Frankum]

I'm glad that you have noticed the improvement. Long may it continue. So your mindreading qualities have failed you, and you upset somebody. I would suggest that it's more HER problem. It's reasonable to ask an innocent question. It's called communication. Thats how we find out things! Don't lose any sleep over it. Best wishes. 

[kutuup]

Thanks :)

Today I noticed the people I do this podcast with including that girl making a dig about me for supporting the multiverse theory on Facebook (once again Facebook drama eh? ). I didn't say anything, I'm not the type of person to air my dirty laundry on Facebook, I like to think I have a little more tact than that lol. What bothers me is that they they ASKED me to explain what the multiverse theory is in the first place. So basically they asked for an explanation of something which is very complex, failed to understand it and then decided to make fun of me for thinking it might be possible.

I don't care if someone doesn't understand a theory, that's fine, or even if they want to argue against it with evidence to disprove it, that's how we advance as a species. But to make fun of someone for presenting a theory just because you don't understand it is how teenagers act, well, thoughtless teenagers anyway. I feel like I'm talking to a wall with these people. These are people who have a guy with no teeth come deliver pot to them on a daily basis and treat him better than they treat me. I'm not against people smoking pot, but jesus christ, have some standards!

I just feel like I'm surrounded by idiots a lot of the time.

I think a lot of my low mood comes from frustration at not being able to find people to hold an intelligent conversation with.

I think I'm painfully understimulated by the people I know. 

[Pip]

Ah the curse of Facebook and no I'm not trying to be funny.  I used to like Facebook in the early days but now it's a different matter as people abuse it.  I don't understand the mentality of people who choose to be unkind through it whether it's to poke fun at someone of become bullies.

[kutuup]

I tend to avoid it nowadays, it just seems to have turned into a barrage of people making passive-aggressive digs at each other or banging on about how amazing their life is. I just sometimes think "wow, good for you, you went to a pub and had lunch..." I think Stewie Griffin hit the nail on the head with a lot of people too: "Wow, you took a black and white photo of a lawn chair, you must be so brooding and deep" People do become bullies on there too, like they'll make a dig at you, so you decide you've had enough of them and unfriend them, then they get all tetchy because you unfriended them! It just seems like the place where people go to say things to people they wouldn't in person. Genuinely, I have about 5 people out of my friends list who I actually give a crap about and what they're doing. It's like when people used to send round robins, except you get about 100 of them every day from people you barely even know lol Then you have this whole "like" crap. I'll post up something trying to start a discussion, and I just get a load of people "liking" it! Even my mum does it and she lives in the same house as me! If she likes what I said so much then why not come and talk about it?

I'm a technology nut, but the way having a smart phone changes everything is really annoying as much as it is convenient. Now when you buy a movie you often even get a copy you can watch on your phone! I tend to agree with what David Lynch had to say on that: "It's such a sadness that you think you've seen a film on your f***ing telephone. Get real!"

I sound like such a moody sod here haha. I'm not, I actually had a good day :) I'm just having one of those "why do I put up with all this pointless crap?" moments lol.

It's like every time you meet a new person you're obligated to "friend" them and then be bombarded with every detail of their life, it's bloody annoying! When I want to find out what someone's been up to, I'll go see them, and if they want to find out what I've been up to, they can come and see me! But no, I have to be stuck with daily updates about how they're getting "morning kisses" from their f***ing dog!

[Pip]

Don't talk to me about smart phones  005 .  I finally brought myself up to the 21st century in January and got a Sony Xperia P which meant downloading the manual because I wasn't supplied one  004 .   I refuse to go on the internet with it though but I do like playing games on it.

Months ago I got so fed up with Facebook and the amount of 'friends' I had (about 1600) that I de-activated it and set up a new account.  Now i have friends I want to keep in touch with on my friends list plus people I got to know over the years who have an adoption connection.

[iggyelvis]

I understand how you feel cat was not for me at all.

[kutuup]

Hey all,

Sadly today was a rough day.

This guy I was friends with as a kid called me to ask me to drive him and his band to the airport. That's typical of him, I don't hear from him for months, when I do see him he treats me like a sidekick and revels in how bad I've been feeling, but when he needs a favour, he comes straight to me as if he knows I'll help him out whenever he comes calling. This time he was wrong, I don't give a crap if his band didn't make plans for transport under the assumption that I was some mug who would just drop everything and help them out. Looks like they're missing their gig in France, boo freaking hoo. This is a band of four guys whose average age is about 28. None of them can drive. I guess they're just so self assured that their friends are such mugs that they'll drive their asses around when they ring the bell. Sorry guys, you didn't learn to drive, which is pretty crucial nowadays. If you aren't paying me, I'm not being your taxi. This is the same band that threw a hissy fit when we were kids when I asked to be paid for setting up their sound system for a gig. So they're too lazy to do it themselves, but god forbid I should have the audacity to ask to be PAID for WORKING for them! Apparently real friends work for free to do a job the band is perfectly capable of doing themselves! I don't mind doing a favour, but if I'm doing 3 hours work for them, they can bloody pay me a cut of the money they are making. I'm meant to be a friend, not a f***ing servant!

This is the same group of people who have a girl friend who will shag one of the groupies at the drop of a hat who is by all accounts the biggest asshole I have ever met despite her knowing just that because he's "cool" or something, despite him being a foul, womanising neanderthal with a beer belly the size of a small car.

These are the sorts of people I am surrounded by, and I hate them with every fibre of my being. If I were a violent guy I'd be concerned for their safety. Luckily I'm the sort who doesn't solve their problems with violence, but how can I get away from these creeps?? I'm stuck on an island with them!

I know there are decent, intelligent people in the UK, I've met them on this site, but how do you all deal with being surrounded with morons???

It's a pretty sorry state of affairs when we intelligent folk are surrounded by halfwits like this, it's little wonder we are depressed.

Sorry, had to vent.

James x

[kutuup]

Although I should add, the day was little better because I watched my favourite movie :) You wanna hurt me? I love it for that scene alone, well, as well as for it being the one film I can watch over and over and never get bored it also carries a hint of sadness for me in knowing that I'll never get to America or Canada, so the adventure they had is one I'll never have. No matter how much I want it, I'm stuck on this little island, and I'll never live off of it. I'm a big fish in a tiny pond. I can dream as big and as far as I want, but the reality is I'm beached on a little island with nowhere to go. At least, that's what this f***ing black cloud that follows me every day tells me, and I can't find a singe thing to argue back.

[popsicle]

  I feel like that at times and in part I blame myself.  I was a student nurse and had I qualified the world would have opened as other countries snap up British nurses.  Depression and bullying from two RMN's got the better off me and I chucked the towel in 

[sapphire78]

I posted about my day on here instead of the other slot. absent minded time.

I hope you find the friends that bring out the best in you and make you feel supported.
x

[kutuup]

Hi all, just wanted to check in.

So as far as friends go, I've isolated myself for a little bit to keep myself sane and begun working on a heavily story driven game with some guys I met online called "That Dragon Cancer" about a heavily introverted guy who finds out he has a few months to live and has to piece together the relationships he made in life and is all about discovering this guy's story from repressed memories. I've played a demo of it and so far it's really moving :) it's a pretty sad story but working on it is really exciting. I think we're heading in a Dear Esther direction where the whole game is the story, and I feel like telling stories is my strong point so I'm right at home. After all, my whole life is a story, and I like telling it my own way, so it's even more exciting to tell someone else's story in the same way.
:)

James