I'm in the hospital again :(

[CharleysAngel']

Had the ultrasounds and CT scan down, went really quickly and have been given the all clear. They are putting my tummy pains down to stress unless things get worse and they might carry out some further tests. It had been a fairly good morning, as well as getting the all clear I managed a whole slice of toast at breakfast. I really thought I would be going home soon.

Then I did something really stupid, when I got back from the CT I tried to get out of bed on my own. I don't know why, I was headed for the door when I came over very weak and dizzy, next thing I wake up on the floor with a very worried looking nurse and doctor looking down at me. I was put back into bed and checked over by the doctor, she said my breathing was a little rapid so I have to wear an oxygen mask again and I have been put back on a blood pressure monitor. When the nurse had tucked me back up in bed and made sure I was comfortable they both went outside and I heard what they said. Basically I'm not going to be allowed home for another two days at the least and the doctor said I am extremely ill they just can't find a diagnosis. I'm so upset I just want to go home

[Zaf]

Oh Charley     I know its no consolation but you're in the right place to get a proper diagnosis  %^%  xxx

[Buttercup]

Really feel for you Charley, especially overhearing it.

Like Zaf says, you're in the best place right now  %^% %^%

[mamalou]

Poor you - so sorry you aren't going to make it home as soon as you had hoped. But, at least when you are in hospital it is possible to keep a very close eye on symptoms and also to intervene if things do change. I hope you get some rest. Keep your chin up.

Lots of love x x x

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone xx

The doctor came in to have a chat with me. She said that it looks like I am going to have to stay here for a few more days as I am really not very well. She said they are running out of ideas and I may still leave here without a diagnosis. She has taken the oxygen mask off now but wants me to keep the blood pressure monitor on. The nurse had now upped my fluid intake through the IV and I have just had 5 blood samples taken off for various tests on different chemicals in my blood. I'm kind of glad they don't think its anything serious but I just want to feel better

One good thing, my doctor is coming to see me this afternoon. She doesn't usually work on Thursday but she had to go in for the morning.

[Zaf]

Thats really nice of your own doctor to go and see you, if you can tell her a little about whats worrying you xxx

[Buttercup]

I agree it's really nice of your own doctor to go in, like Zaf says if you can talk to her it might help in some way.

Xxx

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone xx

My doctor has been, she arrived about 12 and had only just left. She brought me a teddy dressed in a nurses outfit all wrapped up in a pretty bag with tissue paper and ribbon and a card. She said she felt bad that she she seen me about an hour before I fell so ill. When I came to my appointment she thought I did look unwell but thought it was just that I was run down from the tonsillitis. I told her that I had been feeling really down recently and she said she isn't surprised because I have been feeling so poorly, but if I want when I am feeling better I can go see her at the surgery and we can talk about it properly. Then I cried because I was so upset and so tired and she was being so nice to me. She gave me a cuddle and said it was all going to be ok and that I am being well looked after and I will start to feel better soon. She said that I need to try and sleep this afternoon and just concentrate on getting better.

[Zaf]

Thats lovely of her, and you now have an opening to talk to her about all your worries if you can  %^%  xxx

[Buttercup]

Ahhhhhhh that's really lovely of her. 

Now that you've opened up to her and cried it will hopefully be easier to talk. Xxx

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone xx

It was really nice of her, sometimes I wish that we didn't have a professional relationship and that she was a friend instead of my doctor. Hopefully I will be able to tell her, I just put the crying down to the very distressing situation I am in and I think she did too.

I'm actually hungry for the first time since I have been here, I don't know what's on the menu tonight but it better be good otherwise I have to get my mum to go and get me something.

[mamalou]

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[CharleysAngel']

Thanks mamalou xx

I clearly wasn't as hungry as I though, I managed about two or three mouthfuls of dinner and started to feel very ill. The nurse said I really needed to eat something so got some toast sent up, I managed half a small slice and that was it. She said I have had a hard day and tucked me up in bed and told me to try and sleep for a bit.

I'm going to ask the doctor for something to help me sleep when she comes in for my evening check up. I'm still very weak and tired but have slept hardly at all today. I think I might feel a lot better if I have had a really good sleep.

The bloodtests I had done earlier all came back clear, I really don't know what else they are going to test.

[Zaf]

Hope you get a good nights sleep Charley, they really sound to be looking after you really well xx

[CharleysAngel']

They are looking after me well. I'm just really upset and tearful at the moment, if the nurse comes in I will pretend I am asleep