It's time

[Zaf]

If your doctor isnt there next till week could you get to see another one?

Z xx

[pinkcasi]

It was hard enough to find one Dr that appeared to give a damn, i dont want to have to go through it all with someone else, i dont even know what they can do to help, im on the pills, im trying to be as normal as i can, im still coming to work even though im getting in late doing barely any work talking to no one and leaving early, i just spend the day desperately wanting to be at home wrapped in blanket crying, the Dr is going to just up my meds which will take weeks to kick in, what do i do in the meantime.

[Zaf]

I wonder if it would be best to be signed ff so you can hibernate for a bit?  It certainly helped me

Z xx

[pinkcasi]

Yeah i was thinking about that but im worried abut my sickness at work im already on stage 1, though that said if im planning on doing away with myself why do i care huh, im scared thugh if i see the Dr and tell him the truth that he'll have me sectioned, that scares me more than anything.

[Zaf]

I thonk you have to be a serious danger to others or yourself before you can be sectioned, I've told my GP in the past that I've ad suicidal thoughts and there wasnt a hint of being sectioned

Z xx

[pinkcasi]

Yeah but the last time i saw him he asked if i felt i could keep myself safe, i said yes of course, but now i cant say that, im a total danger to myself.

Anyway i tried to get an appointment and there are none for today, i have to call in the morning for an appointment if i 'feel it's urgent for the day' ha! in the meantime im going home i've just told my manager i cant do it it's takign all the energy i have to not burst into tears.

[Zaf]

You do need to tell the doctor you have suicidal thoughts, and if necessary the receptionist if they mess you around with an appointment tomorrow, I know its not easy, I have made myself an appointment with my GP next week and I'm dreading it.

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

Its so hard getting past receptionists sometimes  .   You must tell them its urgent, you need help now not next week.

S x x x x

[Ezel]

pinkcasi, I should have stood my ground recently about seeing my GP recently.  However our surgery has a triage system in place which means ringing up for an appointment then waiting for a call back from a nurse then making an appointment.  I got so frustrated that i caved in and told the nurse to forget about it because I was so depressed.  We are seriously thinking about changing doctors because I find it difficult to deal with the staff.  It's something that maybe you should think about as well.

[pinkcasi]

I think it's mostly the same everywhere unfortunately, you only get seen if you can really push for it and people like us can't push for it.
The last time I saw the dr I told him that It's so hard to get an appt and when I do it's a different dr and I have to go through it all again so I just don't go and he said he'd get the receptionist to call me to make an appt to ensure I get on with him, she called me that same day, unfortunately that appt is 2 wks time, I can't wait that long but my dr now is away till next wk i dont know that I can wait that long either, I can't go to work tomorrow I know that much, I'm supposed to go out for a big retirement do tomorrow but I just can't face all the people.

[Beetzart]

My surgery is similar.  They used to have a system where you ring at 8 am to get in, no pre-booked appointments unless it was a couple of weeks in advance, but it did mean you could get in that day if you were persistant and patient.  They scrapped that to a free for all, so if you ring on a monday for a appnt on tuesday it will be two weeks tuesday and maybe longer if you want to see a particular dr.  I just ask for emergency appointments but the receptionists always wants to know what's wrong; so I feel guilty when I say mental health problems.  But I mean come on she isn't a triage nurse so how can she differentiate with what is important or not, she could turn away someone with a possible life threatening illness.

[pinkcasi]

Ive definately decided im not going to work tomorrow and i feel better about it however i've also decided im going to try and get in to see a doctor and am really anxious about that, i hate having to go through it all again when all i want is more meds and a sick note, i honestly feel like i just need some time, i cant keep going to work, it's hard to get up in the morning everyong thinks im lazy i roll in late spend the day trying to not cry then leave early, i've tried so hard to keep it togethre but im done, totally done, i just hope thie dr is as understanding as the last one.

Thanks for all your help guys i do appriciate it.

[pinkcasi]

So I tried to get in to see a dr and surprise surprise no spots today even tho it was 3 minutes past 8, (appts released at 8am) I asked when my dr is back, Tuesday, she asked if it could wait till then and what was I supposed to say'no sorry that doesn't fit with my plan to kill myself on sat' I just said 'yes thank you goodbye'
I certainly don't think my boyfriend will just let me alone to see my plan through, I did dream about it last night, sometimes it's hard to know what's real and what's dream.

[Sweetpea]

Thats crazy, all the appointments gone at just after 8.  Just hang on until you can see your own dr on Tuesday, glad  your boyfriend is going to make sure you are safe.

Take care

S x x x x

[whiteadder]

When you do get to see a doctor, perhaps mention to them the difficulties you've had getting to see them. They might have a system for flagging you up with the receptionists for kind and flexible treatment! Take care :)