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Sallas

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I hate myself.
« on: May 20, 2012, 06:37:45 PM »
Im drinking far too much lately. Feel horrific after. Cant keep going like this. I think Im ready for some proper help.
Im not quite sure where to start. I cant deal with life today.
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #1 on: May 20, 2012, 06:42:14 PM »
Go to your GP sallas and get treatment for depression if you arent already, try to be honest about your drinking if you possibly can, your doctor may be able to help.

Try AA if you think you are dependent on alcohol.  Alcohol wont help believe me, I was near alcoholic until about 3 years ago and it really doesnt make you feel better in th long run

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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #2 on: May 20, 2012, 06:48:12 PM »
I know. The drinking has been my new way pf coping, i suppose its always been there but its getting out of control. Im out of control. I dont know what to live for. I dont think i want to live right now. If i had a gun, it would be game over today. One quick decision.
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #3 on: May 20, 2012, 06:49:54 PM »
Dont go down that route sallas, please go to your doctor for help

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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #4 on: May 20, 2012, 06:57:58 PM »
F.........................ck! £*$ I cant believe im here again! I cant deal with it all. I need an off switch. My body is broken from being really sick. My head is saying its time to go. My heart is beating faster than it should. Its all breaking down fast. How do I disapear? I need help but do I want it? I need help. I am so stupid, I just dont know where to begin.
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #5 on: May 20, 2012, 07:34:52 PM »
Really cant deal. Ive just been sick again. How I havent passed out is a miracle. I feel like ive swallowed knives. I just txt someone there in hope to start some sort of dialogue as to how im feeling. Nothing back yet though. I think ive hit rock bottom (again). I cant deal with anything, i need to
go away. I need help so badly!!
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #6 on: May 20, 2012, 07:36:07 PM »
Please  go to A&E or contact your out of hours GP service

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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #7 on: May 20, 2012, 07:41:11 PM »
I couldnt physically talk to anyone right now, i defiantly couldnt do a&e id be embarresed. I wish i cudnt sleep it off. Im so thirsty but cant keep water down. Im just venting here its taking my mind of tablets.
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #8 on: May 20, 2012, 07:49:03 PM »
Could you phone the samaritans?
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #9 on: May 20, 2012, 07:51:12 PM »
Ive just txt two more people telling them how low i am. hopefully someone will get back to me.
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #10 on: May 20, 2012, 07:52:13 PM »
Keep venting here until someone gets to you to help you, at least we will know you are ok if you keep posting.

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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #11 on: May 20, 2012, 07:54:23 PM »
I hope they do, as shaz says keep posting if you can

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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #12 on: May 20, 2012, 07:55:44 PM »
Thats very kind of u to give a &$%+. Thanks.

Ive literally just laid my soul bare to these people u think they would reply straight away. Its not there fault im just getting abit panicked. I dont think im going to kill myself but i dont know what the alternative is. Ive really f***ed up my life, i need a redo. why cant i just sleep it off.
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #13 on: May 20, 2012, 07:57:04 PM »
What if they dont reply, dont know what ill do
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Re: I hate myself.
« Reply #14 on: May 20, 2012, 08:01:12 PM »
Call 999 and tell the operator what you've drunk/taken, they will know what to do
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