Hi, I'm Jenny

[jmstudious34]

I'm glad to join this site because i've been going through it this last few of months.

I've been taking tablets since i was 16 and fed up with it.  I came off it a couple of times once to have my daughter.

At the moment i feel very low maybe parenoid.  Everything my Husband and Daughter say drives me insane because i think they think i'm stupid, can't cook, can't communicate, etc.

I go to yoga every week and i find that it just makes me angry but maybe i'm doing it wrong.

I felt accused when i was cooking and my daughter was shouting out to me that she wanted her friend to come over on a school day for a couple of hours.  I said, "No, it's a school day," but what i thought she was going to do was ask her Dad but she didn't instead she told her Dad that i had said,"No," So Dad said he was going to have a word with me.  I came up with tea and he more or less said she should be able to see her friends.  I said i was cooking i wasn't taking much notice of what she was saying.  Also said that she has to do her homework first.

I feel that my family  aren't happy with me if i'm involved there's dispute.  I get a pain in my head and feel useless, rejected, unloved a bit, nobody appreciates me.

No matter how i talk to friends, family members i still feel the same, tormented.  Please somebody help.

[Lol]

Hello Jenny. You do sound Paranoid and depression can make you feel this way. Depresion is a chemical imbalance which alters your perception of the world around you and how you feel about it in many different ways. You are also dealing with some confict within your family environment but you may not be able to interpret this as you might normally, leading it to feel like a direct threat against you where it may not actually be.

Only your GP can make a diagnosis about depresion and from what you have said I suggest going to him/her and describing how you feel. If you were to be diagnosed as a depression sufferer, don't worry, it is perfectly treatable and people do recover.

If you need to let off steam in this kind of environment we are here to support you.

[Zaf]

Hi jenny, welcome :)

Everything you describe is a sign of depressive illness, have you been to your GP recently?  I was on prozac for years then it stopped working so my doc prescribed different medication which so far has been very effective, I've been told I will have to take antidepressants for the foreseeable future, my doc said it was no different to diabetics having to use insulin and I saw his point, my brain chemistry is lacking in something so I need to take medication to put it right, if you think of it like that it makes a lot of sense.

Everyone here will support you as much as they can xx

[FootieFan87]

Your husband really should be trying to provide a united front when dealing with the kids. Kids are smart and will always try and play one parent off the other but it's on the adult to reject these mind games. Sounds like you're reasons got lost in translation a little bit which is very common with depression. I sometimes find myself limited to one word answers so just take the time to compose your thoughts to your husband. Remember it's just the condition, you are not stupid. You're mind is just occupied with other stimuli. All the best, spursfan x