How are you feeling today?

[Got]

Nickynoo, it is very normal to feel like the only person in the world with depression, and it is also normal to feel selifish for feeling low, with the knowledge that people have it worse. It does seem like such I waste of time doesn't it, feeling this way for no real reason. Really, I have got nothing to complain about either, but sometimes it all seems just too much. I hope you feel more positive tommorow

[Zaf]

Thinking of you all,  it seems its not a good time for many of us here atm



today I feel tired and overwhelmed, I dont know why, also a bit tearful - I know next week is going to be frantic and difficult for a variety of reasons and I really would rather curl up under my duvet right now,  hopefully as the day goes on things will improve.

[Got]

Sorry your feeling this way. Maybe all ourminds have become merged in the forum, and we all feel bad at the same time.   

[Bexwa]

I'm sorry Bexwa this is an awful way for you to be feeling. Are you having any particular thoughts whilst being so angry? Are you sure it is anger and not anxiety? Have you ever had a panic attack is it one of those? Please don't drink too much wine while you're feeling like this. If you would like to talk about how you ae feeling please go ahead.

Thanks Lol. I know I need to calm down and I thought at first it might be a panic attack but it never subsided. It just built up and up. My other half, who I thought understood the way I was, told me I have become a horrible person and that I am pushing him away (story of my life ) its what always happens. When things are good I have to do my best to destroy it.  I'm just so glad people round here understand better then the people in my life.

[Bexwa]

i gotta agree with lol, about it could be a panic attack.  also the wine, try relaxation techniques, i was skeptical of these until my psychologist MADE me do one, wow what a huge help.

thats a very basic version of what i do but i started with basically that one
http://ibs.about.com/od/treatmentofibs/ht/visualiz.htm

Thank you so much for this Cornish, will definitely try it out. I need something because the way I was feeling yesterday the one thing I needed was a punch bag!

Hope everything at works gets settled down once that guy has gone

[Zaf]

Sorry your feeling this way. Maybe all ourminds have become merged in the forum, and we all feel bad at the same time.   

Its possibly the gloomy weather, it certainly makes my mood lower when its like this

[Got]

Hope you feel better Bexwa.

I have some very good news, I am to be assesed next week. I rang up the hospital and told them how I was able to function very well, and they moved my appointment for me. Finally I will may be about to receive appropriate treatment.

[Zaf]

Thats good news :)

[smirfy21]

thats brilliant news stevie, I hope it goes ok
smirfy

[Alstare1974]

Had a really nice night out with my friends and feeling happy for a change.

[cornish]

had my first meeting with a cpn today.  bloody mental health team have just realized i didn't have one after over a $%W"$% year  grrrr.
not sure how i felt about it. hmm well actually just dont feel good about it. not the normal i dont want help feeling, just a feeling like its not right, somethings wrong, maybe paranoia but i dont think so.

cant sleep but so drowsy and tired, really annoyed with my self.

i think on of my si cuts is infected as its rather swollen, red, and VERY tender. got another appointment with my gp monday so will ask about it.  im getting annoyed with my self having so many appointments, waste there time.  had 3 this week, although one was private, i feel really bad about wasting the nhs time and money when there's not much point.  starting to think im hiding how i really am from all of them to get rid of them again, it worked last time, they left me alone for a while, just want to give up on getting help as i really think im beyond it


numb part of my hand is feeling really bad

counting down the days now really, seems easier that way, like its something to look forward to, but fear.

[Zaf]

Had a really nice night out with my friends and feeling happy for a change.

Thats great to hear Alstare :)

[Zaf]

had my first meeting with a cpn today.  bloody mental health team have just realized i didn't have one after over a $%W"$% year  grrrr.
not sure how i felt about it. hmm well actually just dont feel good about it. not the normal i dont want help feeling, just a feeling like its not right, somethings wrong, maybe paranoia but i dont think so.

cant sleep but so drowsy and tired, really annoyed with my self.

i think on of my si cuts is infected as its rather swollen, red, and VERY tender. got another appointment with my gp monday so will ask about it.  im getting annoyed with my self having so many appointments, waste there time.  had 3 this week, although one was private, i feel really bad about wasting the nhs time and money when there's not much point.  starting to think im hiding how i really am from all of them to get rid of them again, it worked last time, they left me alone for a while, just want to give up on getting help as i really think im beyond it


numb part of my hand is feeling really bad

counting down the days now really, seems easier that way, like its something to look forward to, but fear.

Its not wasting their time cornish, you are ill and they are there to help ill people, whatever their illness.  From what you've said in the past you are hiding things from fear, which is also part of your illness

Thinking of you xx

[Zaf]

To be honest I feel pathetic as my depression and problems seem so much less than most people here  but i'm tired of struggling with life, making important decisions, looking after others, trying to organise things, trying to find time for me and feeling totally overwhelmed.  I want the world and everything in it to go away and leave me alone


Oh, and I've gone mad with internet retail therapy and struggling not to, it seems to be one of my 'things' when I'm down for some reason so of course I'm feeling guilty about that too.....

[Lol]

Hope you feel better Bexwa.

I have some very good news, I am to be assesed next week. I rang up the hospital and told them how I was able to function very well, and they moved my appointment for me. Finally I will may be about to receive appropriate treatment.

This is brilliant Stevie. Well done for taking this action I am so pleased the hospital listened to you and moved your appointment forward! Very well done fingers crossed for you!