How are you feeling today?

[Alstare1974]

Cornish. Glad to see you back.

Am still feeling like absolute crap.

[cornish]

Feeling even worse tonight, I will keepmypromise but I can't make another one as the pressure from this one is bad enought, it make me feel like I've lost my freewill.

The S.I. Is getting more frequent and some of the voices are getting more angry and pushy.

[Got]

Have you spoken to anyone about the voices yet?

[Zaf]

Thinking of you cornish xx

[Zaf]

 Getting really fed up with difficult sleep patterns, yet again awake in the early hours and cant sleep

[smirfy21]

if you dont mind me asking, what do you mean by voices? is it your own voice or random voices telling you to do things?

I have given in to the irregular sleep patterns as it seems the less sleep I get the more able I am to think and the more productive I become. although I keep seeing things or actually thinking I have seen things through the corner of my eye and when I turn around or double take there is nothing there. I'm not sure if this would be classed as a hallucination or not, maybe I am just going a bit mad due to sleep deprovation.

got loads of ideas going round my head but I am doing this project and all the research I have done has lead me to a project that mentally I don't want to do but know that its all part of the process so I have to do it which sucks as lots of people probably won't understand it artistically or will be confused by it, even I am a bit confused by it at the moment but it is really early days so who knows where it could lead me.

got christmas on my mind awell tonight, so been thinking about christmas present ideas and how to decorate the house, what recipes to make and what designs I am going to use for the christmas cards. its like 6 weeks away which is going to fly by so if I start thinking about it now it won't be a manic rush the week before.

anyways will probably pop back in later
smirfy =+-

 

[Munchroom]

Absolutley cream crackered! I have never worked such a manic night-shift, there was just no let up! I am under strict instrustions from my mum to sleep - A LOT! Before my next shift...

Cornish - I am thinking of you lovely and just really wishing there was so much more I could do   If making another promise would just generate more stress and seem like something else you are fighting against, then don't make it. Everyone is entiled to thier own freedom of choice, even if it is hard for others to understand. Please know though how much we all care for you and how willing we all are to support and encourage you. You have made some great steps towards a recovery over the last few months and I do not doubt for one minute how incredibly hard all of this still is for you, but the EDMR was never going to be an easy path to go down - you are going to be living through all sorts of hellish emotions going through that alone, without introducing another type of medication. Please text me or send me a message if you need anything at all xxx

Smirfy - I am more than very intruiged by your atristic project!! Can you share? People don't have to 'understand' art.... its about what you make it, your vision  :) xx

Zaf - I hope you managed to get a little more sleep after your last post? What relaxing things do you have lined up over the next couple of days?  :) xx

How is everyone else this-morning/afternoon? Thinking of you all, as always  &*(

[Zaf]

I did get about an hour of intermittent sleep before I needed to go and feed the dogs and horses, I went for an aromatherapy treatment this morning and I usually sleep well after one of Those so fingers crossed!

I also got a small sample of essential oils that may help me sleep, lavender is the one usually recommended for insomnia but I'm very allergic to it    it will depend on the weather what I do over the weekend, if its wet I'm hoping OH will take me into John Lewis as I'd like some good kitchen knives, if its dry I need to go walking and try to absorb some nature again :)

Hope you get the sleep you need, you could do with a nice relaxing weekend too xx

[nickynoo]

Hi Zaf....I'm studying aromatherapy as part of my course at the moment and we've been learning about the essential oils and their benefits to health.....the following essential oils may help you or anyone else on the forum:

German chamomile - Good for anxiety, nervous bowel conditions, insomnia....excellent for relaxation.
Clary sage - Very good for depression.
Geranium - Good for balancing extremes - hormonal or emotional, good uplifting oil, helps anxiety, nervous tension, stress and depression.
Grapefruit - Stimulating/uplifting effect on body so helps depression, nervous exhaustion, fatigue.
Lavender (I know your allergic but others may find it useful) - relaxing oil that can help with insomnia (tho this can have a stimulating effect if too much is used), good for shock and depression.
Lemon - Uplifting properties.
Lemongrass - Good for nervous exhaustion.
Margoram - Good for insomnia.
Neroli - Good for anxiety, depression, stress, shock, palpatations.
Rose bulgar - Uplifting properties, good for depression.
Rosemary - Very good for mental fatigue and general fatigue.
Sandalwood - Very good antidepressant properties.
Ylang ylang - Helps with nervous tension, anxiety, panic attacks, irritability and insomnia.

There may be other oils that can help with things too, we only learn 15 oils on my course as it is a NVQ level 3 including other massages including the preblended aromatherapy.

Its probably a good idea to see a clinical aromatherapist before you start to use these oils, the oils can be very effective when used properly however they can cause problems if used incorrectly. A clinical aromatherapist may also be able to mix a blend individual to your needs to use at home.

Not only can the oils be absorbed thru the skin during a massage, they can also be used in oil burners, air sprays, candles, pot pouri, baths, body lotions, tissue under the pillow for night time use etc.

Hope that has been beneficial to someone :) 

[Zaf]

Thanks nickynoo, thats a great list :)

The lady I go to has been practicing aromatherapy for about 25 years and has all the qualifications, she did say sandalwood, chamomile or melissa might help but at the moment I've got some valerian (which I have taken as  tincture in the past) and an oil I'd never heard of in the past called vetivert which she said can be caled the "oil of tranquility"

I think sromatherapy is a fascinating subject, do you hope to take it up professionally in the future?

[Alstare1974]

Would anyone miss me?

[Munchroom]

Yes, Alstare - I think you have a bunch of friends here who care for you and would miss you terribly if you were not here x

[Zaf]

Yes Alstare, I would and I'm sure lots of others here would too

You must be feeling really bad again?

[Alstare1974]

Yes I am Zaf :-(

[Lol]

Yes Alstare, we would, your friends would and your family would. What makes you say that?