How are you feeling today?

[Got]

You said you had to sign up for a medication course...I don't know what that is 

[Munchroom]

Oh... sorry! I do bank work in an elderly peoples home, they want me to do medication training so that I can administer medication and therefore not have to be the secondary member of staff on the shifts that I do. I used to do it - I did it five days a week without giving it a second thought, but the thought of the responsibility at the moment is pretty terrifying to be honest 

[cornish]

 "£"   my EMDR went "well" (according to the psychologist,  i HATED it) earlier but it was horrific and physically i felt all of the pain again, haven't taken my anti psychotics yet, there extremely tranquilizing and put me to sleep in about 2 minuets, i just dont want to pass out tonight from them, i want natural sleep not some weird sleep with no dreams and feeling even my exhausted in the morning and not being able to wake up.


BUT im not tired at all and i know i need them so i think i better take them, gotta force my self.   will end up passing out and wont be back till tomorrow.

oh and i only have 2 more sessions with my psychologist unless more are sorted in time.  2 weeks and then there's no promise to keep

[Got]

Then you need to make a promise to us then Cornish, because we all want you here.

[Zaf]

Stevie is right cornish, we do all want you here  &*(

[Zaf]

woke up feeling sort of neutral, but not that horrible hollow feeling.  As the morning has progressed Ive got irritible and a bit tearful,  no idea why - it will pass I'm sure but its disappointing to go downhill, even a tiny bit.


Alstare,  you will feel ghastly for a little while longer as you have been through such a lot in the last couple of weeks or so,  hang in there,  it will improve

[Depina]

Not good today
Missing kids and grandchildren and one set I only see about twice a year and don't hear from them much.
Feel like bursting into tears, plus cloudy foggy brain and keep forgetting things and getting mixed up !
A friend is giving me a lift to a friend for lunch so hope I don't look too odd to them !! It would be a lot easier to just go to bed, even tiny things seem like hard work.
Take Care
Di XX

[Got]

My brain feels like its in pieces again. Cant do anything, feel awful, cant handle my emotions.

I will hopefull feel better later.Hope evryone else feels better as well

[Zaf]

today has gone seriously downhill for me,  I'm sure its the hassles in the office this morning

[Got]

Are you able to take a break and do some thingsyou enjoy?

[Lol]

"£"   my EMDR went "well" (according to the psychologist,  i HATED it) earlier but it was horrific and physically i felt all of the pain again, haven't taken my anti psychotics yet, there extremely tranquilizing and put me to sleep in about 2 minuets, i just dont want to pass out tonight from them, i want natural sleep not some weird sleep with no dreams and feeling even my exhausted in the morning and not being able to wake up.


BUT im not tired at all and i know i need them so i think i better take them, gotta force my self.   will end up passing out and wont be back till tomorrow.

oh and i only have 2 more sessions with my psychologist unless more are sorted in time.  2 weeks and then there's no promise to keep

Cornish I'm glad your psychologist felt your EMDR went well, did she explain in what ways she thought it went well? I'm so sorry this was such a terrible experience for you. Feeling all the pain and experiences must have been terrifying. It is difficult to understand that something so awful could actually be helping. I wonder in what ways they thought it had helped?

I would like you to make a promise to us Cornish. I really wish you want to. If you felt you could, we would feel so very relieved. You are so importnat to us. We care deeply about you and your friends and family also care very much about you. I know that you want to get over this rather than give in but I know it is too much for you to cope with at times. I hope you can make that promise Cornish.

[Lol]

today has gone seriously downhill for me,  I'm sure its the hassles in the office this morning

Zaf I'm sorry today's gone a bit pear-shaped for you. You desserve so much to have a good sustained period of happiness where you can experience peace and control over your emotions and energy. I know one day it will come for you. You are doing so well. This is a temporary set back. You know what to do.

[danbob]

today has gone seriously downhill for me,  I'm sure its the hassles in the office this morning

chin up cockles 

[Zaf]

I know it happens lol so I dont despair but I do feel disappointed, but I know that it will pass and I'm thankfull I dont have nearly as bad depression/problems as some here so I shouldnt really moan about it.  

On top of what was already going to be a busy and stressful day one of our major customers has had a boiler fail completely needing a huge amount of work and they want it started today and an estimate provided by 4pm (so much for my afternoon off).

I have an aromatherapy booked for tomorrow so I'm hoping I'll get all tomorrow off but I know that at the weekend I'll need to catch up on the H&S stuff to get our accreditation renewal sorted.  Not what I need at all

I do hope to go into town for the first time in years at the weekend (with OH as my driver/chapparone as I cant do it alone atm) to indulge in a tiny bit of retail therapy :)

[Zaf]

today has gone seriously downhill for me,  I'm sure its the hassles in the office this morning

chin up cockles 

thanks danbob    I'm beginning to wish I was 10 years older so I could retire