How are you feeling today?

[Catbrian]

Very true what you say, Michael.

Woozy, I hope you're okay

[Michael Frankum]

Thanks Cat. It would have been better to put what you put! Woozy, I hope that you're OK. %^%

[mat]

thanks all much appreciated.  will see how im feeling tomorrow .. im back to work .. so fingers crossed.

hope everyone is well

[Leo]

Tired today. When I eventually do sleep, its unrefreshing.

[woozywoo]

People on here are so kind and thoughtful and then there is me. I don't give anyhting  to this website, I never have. I want to feel loved and cared for and that's the reason I post but then I never do the same for others. I am not suicidal like some people on here, I am not feeling the lows some people here are, I don't have the issues others have, so its unfair of me to take from people who geninuely need the support.

Grrrr, I am so frustrated  by being me right now. I need to just get on with my life and carry on putting on t hat mask every morning and preteniding everything Is just fine!!!

[Leo]

Woozywoo, don't beat yourself up.

Everyone is on here for different reasons, will have different experiences but collectively we all feel similar through depression. Not everyone feels able to post support for others when they are struggling themselves.

You are just as deserving of help amd support as anyone else here xx

[Catbrian]

Hey Woozy,  +-_ I would say that you contribute to the Forum just by posting how you are feeling.  We tend to forget that there are visitors to these pages every day, reading what we share .  I imagine almost everyone can relate to your posts, I certainly do.  They may never leave a message, but by identifying with your experiences, they are left with a great sense of relief that it is not just them who thinks and feels like this.

Sometimes we give, at others we take.  For weeks I was barely able to write, let alone read other posts and reply.  We all have enough on our plate without additional pressure from worrying about something that doesn't even exist.

I'm sorry you are not feeling good.  If you ever need to chat, just PM me

[Ohdaddy]

Woozy -  agree with Catb.      There have been many times when I despise myself. When I first read the site after being diagnosed with depression I realized that it was an illness and I was not the only person who thought and felt like I did.  Therefore any contribution (maybe except criticism) is valuable here.  Keep talking.   Do you somehow feel in limbo at the moment?

[Ohdaddy]

Feeling ok-ish today. Looking forward to moving out and having my own place and doing what I want to do.  Frustratingly slow progress on my separation.  Anybody else out there this evening?

[stewart]

im out here....
feeling as normal ... pluss got a stomach bug

[Ohdaddy]

im out here....
feeling as normal ... pluss got a stomach bug

Not pleasant - I've managed to avoid that one.

[woozywoo]

Thanx for making the effort to reassure me guys. Oh daddy, limbo is a great way way of describing it. I have beenbusy today, but as soon as I slow down or stop all the worry, thoughs of the future and stuff like that comes flooding in and I am finding it virtually impossible to ignore it.

Tomorrow we have a family get together e.g. christmas as we were all different places. Its hard to get over 20 close relatives together at one time. I look forward to it and I enjoy it but I know afterwards I hit a low. It always happens. I can put a brqve face on thoughout the day but then in evening I will crumbwle. They all know I suffer with depression and the whole story really, but I still feel I have to act. I don't have what they have all my brothers and sisters happily married, children, even my oldest niece and now that does feel like a kick in the teeth!! They have what I want and what I fear I will never have and don't deserve to have.

[Ohdaddy]

Hi Woozy - Well have to put on a brave face every now and again and pretend we feel fine for the sake of others.   I'm sorry you feel like this. Why do you think you don't deserve to have the things that your brothers and sisters have? I feel like this occasionally - you know what it is, it's not you really is it?

 %^% big hugs

[Leo]

Irritable, irritable, irritable and a bit emotional.

[Catbrian]

Exhausted.... off to have an early night