How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

I'm very glad to hear you're feeling a bit better Cornish that's excellent. Any step in the right direction is good. Please do be kind to yourself. You're doing really well. You are helping so many people in here recently. You are so supportive and able to advise in the most compassionate way. I notice from previous posts that you weren't always able to do this and I think it represents such an improvement do you?

My patner is coming round tonight for a talk and I'm making her dinner. She seems quite upbeat about it and has even requested her favourite food! Which is lovely and I am so happy to oblige. I'm going to try to help her to accept her depression a little if I can but I can't push it as we all know. Getting nervous. Don't want to f it up. Place your bets....

[Zaf]

I'd agree cornish, a lot of the time you sound better than when I first joined :)

Take it gently lol, possibly even a tiny bit more so than you think is necessary - I hope everything goes well :)

I'm exhausted after the osteopath appointment and rather achy so took to my bed and has a sleep instead of doing the things i'd planned to do

[Lol]

HOLY COW PEOPLE I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have, because of my own issues been COMPLETELY OVERPOWERING HER!!!!! Out of desperation and frustration!!!!! Even in giving her the chance to tell me what's wrong, have her own space, seek help for her depression I HAVE BEEN SUGGESTING THINGS, COMING UP WITH PLANS, IDEAS, INCENTIVES, COURAGE, SUPPORT, HELP. SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE needs to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I  can't pick her up and she can't tell me to stop because I have been overpowering her and she daren't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WASN'T LISTENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This could be a long night. What a w£&^$r.

[Zaf]

  good luck lol

[cornish]

good luck lol


well i actually meant physically better not mentally, im still in a bad way


just been to my appointment and it went well although it was twice as long as it should have been as she was very concerned, she's no longer going to give me more than one target at a time as all the targets she has set ive just pushed my self to far and treated them like a job, also she was concerned that i took a whole weekend off and it wasn't good for me, i showed her the si and she was VERY concerned and doesn't want me to take more than a day off at a time but would prefer me to just cut down hours and keep working the same amount and we will take it from there
she has also doubled the minimum number of sessions and is the first person thats actually concerned by my numb hand, the degree of si, the meticulously planned out removing part of my had, the suicide plans and mentally and physically destructive behaviors.
she is really helping and can see an improvement over the past few weeks like you guys can but she can also see that im taking this too fast and that in a few ways im a lot worse.
again im worried as she's never experienced a case like mine before.  but i have so much trust and confidence in her and think she actually cares and want to help, hopefully she can but she said that there is a distinct possibly that i wont ever get back to how i was before but she will get me as close as she can, i just need to not treat the treatment as an order/work and do it because i want and need to

[Munchroom]

Good luck Lol - This is certainly one rollacoaster of a ride, but you know we are all here to support you though it  &*(

I'm pleased she is really taking care with you Cornish  :) Your last line about doing it because you want to is very important - I can understand completley how you will see these 'challenges' as work, but you need to be able to give yourself some slack with them, which I feel that you possibly  wouldn't do if you were treating them as a task. I know its hard, but please keep trying to focus on the bits of progress you have made - no matter how small, you don't need to me to tell you that this is a long and bumpy road! And you may not ever get back to the person you were before... but you will get back to enjoying life again!! Celebrate cheese on toast - and carob!!

How are you feeling today Zaf? Has the pain subsided after your osteopath appointment?

Danbob - how is your sleeping? Are you doing ok??

xxxxx

[cornish]

i dunno if you understood what i mean, for me work is an escape and i throw my self at at, im doing this with my treatment, i just want to do it now and quickly and get on with the next job

[Zaf]

I can understand your concern that she has never tackled  a case like yours but from what you say she certainly seems to be gaining an understanding of how you tick very quickly and is ovbiously making huge efforts to help you.

I see what you mean about thinking of your treatment as a job and wanting to get on with it but if you were to rush a job at work too much things would probably go wrong, is it possible to take your treatment more slowly thinking on those lines?  Perhaps cut down on your daily hours and only work half days at weekends for instance?

Thinking of you xx


less pain this morning thank you Munchroom, just rather achy and tired, still not sleeping well, I really hate these disturbed sleep patterns   how are you now after having a bad week or so?

[danbob]

Good luck Lol - This is certainly one rollacoaster of a ride, but you know we are all here to support you though it  &*(

I'm pleased she is really taking care with you Cornish  :) Your last line about doing it because you want to is very important - I can understand completley how you will see these 'challenges' as work, but you need to be able to give yourself some slack with them, which I feel that you possibly  wouldn't do if you were treating them as a task. I know its hard, but please keep trying to focus on the bits of progress you have made - no matter how small, you don't need to me to tell you that this is a long and bumpy road! And you may not ever get back to the person you were before... but you will get back to enjoying life again!! Celebrate cheese on toast - and carob!!

How are you feeling today Zaf? Has the pain subsided after your osteopath appointment?

Danbob - how is your sleeping? Are you doing ok??

xxxxx

had a &$%+ty few days to be honest not slept well at all, i even got stupidly drunk expecting for me to sleep it off but no i was up 4 hours after i went sleep

how are you?? xx

[Lol]

Cornish it seems that you are saying that it is very difficult for you to be concentrating inwardly and would rather have the detachment of treating it like an external job that you are completing by request?

[Zaf]

Very tired to another disturbed night but at the same time incredibly restless, using my 'do a little then reward myself with a rest' strategy which seems to be working to a certain extent

[Lol]

I have just had our cat vaccinated and he gets very lethargic and out of sorts (off his food which is an absolute tragedy for him!!!!!) for 24 hours after it. so we are having a night in together, some serious knee time, telly and beer to make him (....eherm) feel better.  ^&^ Bless him

[Alstare1974]

Docs now taken me off the amitryptelene after my cpn complained to him that my sleep hygene is bad and needs to improve rather than medicate it.

[Lol]

sleep hygene?

[Zaf]

I have just had our cat vaccinated and he gets very lethargic and out of sorts (off his food which is an absolute tragedy for him!!!!!) for 24 hours after it. so we are having a night in together, some serious knee time, telly and beer to make him (....eherm) feel better.  ^&^ Bless him

Shame you'll have to drink his share of the beer