good luck lol
well i actually meant physically better not mentally, im still in a bad way

just been to my appointment and it went well although it was twice as long as it should have been as she was very concerned, she's no longer going to give me more than one target at a time as all the targets she has set ive just pushed my self to far and treated them like a job, also she was concerned that i took a whole weekend off and it wasn't good for me, i showed her the si and she was VERY concerned and doesn't want me to take more than a day off at a time but would prefer me to just cut down hours and keep working the same amount and we will take it from there
she has also doubled the minimum number of sessions and is the first person thats actually concerned by my numb hand, the degree of si, the meticulously planned out removing part of my had, the suicide plans and mentally and physically destructive behaviors.
she is really helping and can see an improvement over the past few weeks like you guys can but she can also see that im taking this too fast and that in a few ways im a lot worse.
again im worried as she's never experienced a case like mine before. but i have so much trust and confidence in her and think she actually cares and want to help, hopefully she can but she said that there is a distinct possibly that i wont ever get back to how i was before

but she will get me as close as she can, i just need to not treat the treatment as an order/work and do it because i want and need to