How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

That's great Zaf, having confidence in your counsellor is so important! So glad. Have a good day tomorrow. Hope it lasts x

[cornish]

been thinking about my gp appointment and he wouldn't let me have a higher dosage of diazepam as im already addicted to it

also i feel bad about buying such a HUGE engine. what the hell am i going to do with it. hmmm top gear v8 powered blender haha

[Zaf]

Ugh, dreadful nights sleep, horrible vivid dream that one of our dogs was very ill,  now in work feeling like a wrung out dishrag

[Depina]

How awful Zaf, no wonder you feel like that. Glad youv' been having good days though ! -great

D XX

[Depina]

Hi All

Have a good day everyone
Love to all
D XX  :)

[Zaf]

How awful Zaf, no wonder you feel like that. Glad youv' been having good days though ! -great

D XX

its always disappointing to have a down day or days when things have been positive but I do know it happens and as you say Ive had some very positive days recently which has been great :)

[cornish]

Glad you've had some good days zaf.

I need to call my solicitors today and I really dont feel up to it.

[Zaf]

thanks cornish   :)

its a nightmare having to deal with things like that when you dont feel up to it,  Ive got a phone call I need to make too and keep putting it off cos I dont want to deal with the problem it involves

[Lol]

Imagine how positive and empowered you will feel when you've done it. Imagine how good it will feel to be able to think 'I've done that now it's not hanging over me any more'. cumon guys do it.

[Zaf]

I did phone but only got voicemail,  have phoned again but same result,  now I'll send a recorded delivery letter as its very important to get a reply.

Got a bit stressed just before I phoned but not too bad now Ive done it even though I didnt get a reply

[Lol]

That's fantastic Zaf you did it!!! It was very difficult but you have done it and you can tick it off your list! Well done! 

[Lol]

I'm feeling hopeless today  can't motivate myself or keep up the positive thoughts. starting to get a bit paranoid. If I can't pull myself out of this I'll go to pot and loose all trust and faith in everyone and everything and start snapping at people to punish myself. Feel on the outside looking in. tearful.

[Zaf]

I know this sounds a strange thing to say lol but sometimes its better not to push yourself too hard to be motivated, it might be that a wee bit of self indulgence and nurturing yourself would help more for the time being.

Everybody reacts differently to paranoia, with the help of my counsellor I find it helps me to reason with myself, mostly by thinking " whats the worst that can happen" or " how important is it right now or in the grand scheme of things".

At the moment I've got something looming next Tuesday that I'm already feeling paranoid about and on the verge of a major panic attack, I know its going to be a battle till I (hopefully) get there so I've got to try every coping strategy I know .....

[Depina]

Lol
You always have such good advice for others, positive stuff and encouragement too.

Hope you can do that for yourself, sorry you are feeling bad again.

Try and stay positive - you can do it !!

DI XX *(*

[cornish]

i know i will feel a dam sight worse after the call as its to confront them about the mental health assessment thing