How are you feeling today?

[Alstare1974]

Well it certainly feels like it. I can't say I know what you're going through as we're all experiencing individual things and I know I don't get some of the stuff you're going through.

[Depina]

Justed watched the man who survived being a Japenese POW What he went through was unbelievable, how he survived I don't know, He is 91 now.

Can't understand how some people come through things like that and yet I am moaning about being depressed. What do you think makes 'depression' so prevelant nowadays ?

[Alstare1974]

Better recognition and acceptance?

[Alstare1974]

It's quiet on here tonight.

[Depina]

That could be it, more people talk about it now, it was a taboo subject, but still is only not as bad thank goodness, I only told my husband, and that was after years.

Lets hope tomorrow will be better

D XX

[Alstare1974]

How is everyone?

[Depina]

OK How are you doing? XX

[cornish]

still not good. 

theres definitely a lot of stigma involved with the illness, 2 of my colleagues are absolute *%$^" about my being "insane" or "mental", supposedly im useless and i should be locked away or put in a coma till im "fixed". 

[Alstare1974]

Well that's a load of old balls!!

[cornish]

Bloody right it is, I think work is the only thing keeping me going

[Depina]

Yes-that is a load of rubbish. Good you can work Cornish - Well Done !! keep it up.

[nanosizedrainbow]

I was worried about telling people at first too but now I am open with it, I even leave my anti-depressants out on the counter in the kitchen as a) it helps m e remember to take them and b) I don't care if people see them. I didn't tell people at my previous job as I was very scared by the head of the school (I worked there as a teacher) as he had a reputation for bullying and victimisation and I know he has a lot to with my diagnosis and so I didn't want to give him any reason to hate me more but now I am working in a more flexible environment and for much lovelier people and when I'm doing my job I don't feel down so much as maybe it's a distraction as much as anything else.

I think people who say awful things just show up their ignorance. Depression is an illness just as much as any other illness but we just don't have any obvious 'outward signs' so it seems like more of a stigma.

I go through days when I am really strong and then others when I find myself composing a 'last letter' to my friends. I try and take each day at a time and try and 'let things go' that could set me off. I also just warn my friends when my 'black dog' is lapping at my heels so they know why I'm maybe a little down or need some time alone. Sorry, this has really gone off a tangent here! x

[Alstare1974]

Hey nano

Nice post :-)

[Lol]

Isn't it hard to 'let things go' ? drives me nuts I can't do it very often. I'm a brooder and I HATE that about myself.

[Depina]

Lol, do you think that is a symptom - brooding on things, some people just seem to sail through life without a care in the world and jump over obstacles-no trouble !! I know I take things to heart. How are you doing?

Hugs D XX