Thank you Glenn
It's reassuring to know other people can understand how you feel and you aren't actually going mental even though it feels that way sometimes
This forum is/ has helped so much, I'm bored with feeling this way so god knows my close friends have had enough of my moaning, I think unless you have felt this way maybe you can't understand, to let off steam when things get bad is a release that is keeping me going at the moment, sometimes how I am feeling scares me so much as I don't understand what triggers it sometimes, feeling that the world would be better off without you taking up valuable space and worrying you are dragging people down with you, if I couldnt let off steam on here I would bottle up my feelings and that is so much worse.
Thank you all for putting up with me, I know I don't deserve it, I am so truly grateful to everyone on here, just to know there is an outlet makes things a little easier, days a little easier to get through
Xxxxx