fxxxxking surrounded by dissfunction at the moment, my best mates starving herself to death and cutting herself up into pieces, my fxxxxxking lo life brother is being a twat and destroying his life, my mums drinking herself into oblivion and my dad just puts up with it or gets outragiously angry and directs it at the wrong person.
I am normally a fairly tollerant person and try not to judge as I have my own problems but Im sick of just sitting back and watching it all go on around me, Im so stuck in the middle and Im damned if I do and damned if I don't. I hadn't really realised until tonight how much of an affect this is having on me, Im the first to say that we shouldn't judge and we should be able to except that others have problems and help where we can but I just wish that my mum wasn't choosing to be an alcholic and my best mate didn't hate me so much for trying to help, and that my brother would stop being such a fxxxxxking twat and grow up and stop taking drugs and would just hold down a job for once.
gawwwwd I know how selfish this must sound and like Im going me me me all the time but I really don't need this at the moment and I have had enough of being the middle man in all this, gawwwd and they wonder why were all so screwed up in my family
