How are you feeling today?

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Zaf xxx

[Zaf]

Part of me feels like dissolving into tears, the other part feels like smashing things, why the hell cant I cope with life events better?

[Sweetpea]

You are only human Zaf, a very kind and caring human  &*(.

[Zaf]

Thanks shaz

Z xxx

[smirfy21]

fxxxxking surrounded by dissfunction at the moment, my best mates starving herself to death and cutting herself up into pieces, my fxxxxxking lo life brother is being a twat and destroying his life, my mums drinking herself into oblivion and my dad just puts up with it or gets outragiously angry and directs it at the wrong person.

I am normally a fairly tollerant person and try not to judge as I have my own problems but Im sick of just sitting back and watching it all go on around me, Im so stuck in the middle and Im damned if I do and damned if I don't. I hadn't really realised until tonight how much of an affect this is having on me, Im the first to say that we shouldn't judge and we should be able to except that others have problems and help where we can but I just wish that my mum wasn't choosing to be an alcholic and my best mate didn't hate me so much for trying to help, and that my brother would stop being such a fxxxxxking twat and grow up and stop taking drugs and would just hold down a job for once.

gawwwwd I know how selfish this must sound and like Im going me me me all the time but I really don't need this at the moment and I have had enough of being the middle man in all this, gawwwd and they wonder why were all so screwed up in my family 

[Zaf]

Its not at all selfish smirfy, it actually shows how much you care, for your own health you need to try to step back even though thats hellishly difficult, other people have to take responsibility for their lives and actions, you cant take on all their problems yourself - I know thats difficult because I tend to do the same but my counsellor showed me how destructive it is to me and in the long run doesnt usually help those we are worrying about

Z xx

[Zaf]

Tired, low and throat sore

[Buttercup]

Are you still suffering from the virus Zaf?

I wonder if the sore throat could be a result of being depressed and run down. I alway get them when I'm run down and been doing too much.

Xxx

[Zaf]

I'm not sure Buttercup, my GP said he would arrange a chest xray if its not improved in 2-3 weeks but thought it was just a left over from the virus, the soreness is just above collar bone level so I guess thats why he suggested the xray, its very likely its not helped by being run down too

Z xx

[Holykimura]

Having an all time low  My brain feels like there is fog in it, i feel sick, dizzy and just feel like staying in bed all day  !"!

[CharleysAngel']

So ill I have gone back to bed

[smirfy21]

Its not at all selfish smirfy, it actually shows how much you care, for your own health you need to try to step back even though thats hellishly difficult, other people have to take responsibility for their lives and actions, you cant take on all their problems yourself - I know thats difficult because I tend to do the same but my counsellor showed me how destructive it is to me and in the long run doesnt usually help those we are worrying about

Z xx

thanks zaf I guess I find it harder than I realised to step back and let others make their own mistakes. I need to find myself a counsellor now that I am back home.

Are you feeling any better today, it sounds like you need to take some time for yourself and relax a little get a good nights sleep and wake up refreshed.
anyway I hope you feeling better again soon
smirfy

[Zaf]

It is incredibly difficult smirfy but sometimes we have to for our own health, after all if you get ill worrying about people you cant help them if they ask for help when they feel they need to

I'm hoping to get away on the 15th if Jade is well enough

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

Tired now had a busy day, helping mum in her garden, cutting the grass weeding etc.  Then taking her shopping.

 &*( &*( &*( for everyone who are feeling low today.

S x x x x

[Zaf]

Sounds a good day even though it was tiring

Z xxx