How are you feeling today?

[Holykimura]

Our illness often makes us act in ways we normally wouldnt Holykimura, then of course we feel guilty, try not to dwell on it too much if you possibly can, apologise and try to leave it behind.

Can you not have access to your children on your own?

Thanks Zaf I'm going to let the dust settle a little before I apologise to my sister. I have already apologised to my OH and she was very understanding. I have been down the road of having the children by myself, but I don't think it's worth the hassle as its always on my ex's grounds. One of the children was left with brain damage due to a near cot death. Had my Ex let me have contact with the children while they were younger I would have been able to cope with the needs of the child who is unwell. I also would be familiar with his needs as he grew and naturally with time I would adapt and be comfortable to deal with his varying needs. However it has been nearly 6 years since I last saw them and since I am ill myself I don't think I would be able to cope with him and his needs now.

In addition seeing them on my own is not really fair on my two children with my OH. I don't feel I have the strength to drag this to court and I am sad to say that my life has been bad without the need to add any more stress.

[Munchroom]

I've never hated myself as much as I do right now.

[Rycing]

I've never hated myself as much as I do right now.

Munchroom, sorry you are feeling so bad. For you  &*(

And Munchroom, thanks for starting this thread. :) xx

[Buttercup]

 &*( for you Munchroom & snap I feel the same way.

[Liv]

Remember this hatred is a product of depression. I'm sure it's not rational and not actually related to the way you are or what you have done. I know that being aware of this might not solve everything but it's good to remind ourselves. I hope you will feel better soon. x

[Sweetpea]

So sorry you are feeling so bad munchroom, and I agree with above, this is a great post thread.

Take care

S x

[Zaf]

I can understand how you feel Holykimura, you certainly dont need all the extra stress right now

Munchroom, Liv is right, I hope you feel better very soon xx

[KateG]

Feeling better than I did earlier this week, not sure if it's the medication, the weather, more daylight or because this weekend was OK.

&*( Munchroom and Buttercup, sorry you're feeling so bad.

Holykimura you're not being unreasonable, you're just coping with an awful lot and unfortunately those closest to us get the brunt of it when we feel like this. Don't beat yourself up

[CharleysAngel']

Tired and tearful

I don't want to go to school tomorrow because I can't handle all the crap that gets thrown at me. Its not fair, I really want counselling and I can't have it

Hugs to everyone who needs them xx

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for icelolly.

S x

[Buttercup]

Awful night.

To all those who need it  &*(

[Zaf]

not too bad again this morning despite not getting to sleep till 2am and a bit of a sore throat, a five

 &*( &*( to all those feeling down

[Buttercup]

Hope your throat feels better soon Zaf  &*(

[Sweetpea]

Didn't sleep well, kept waking up, didn't stay awake but feel drained as it wasn't a good sleep.

Hope your sore throat is better Zaf.

 &*( for anyone who needs them.

S x

[Buttercup]

poor you shaz, that drained feeling is awful  &*(