How are you feeling today?

[Rycing]

Tired and tearful

&*(

[Buttercup]

Thanx Rycing  &*(

[CharleysAngel']

Haven't posted on here for a while, had a few techincal problems.

Things haven't really been great, got moved to my new form which is ok, except this one boy who keeps trying to cut my ponytail off with a pair of scissors. I nearly got hit in the face with a paint pallet and stabbed with some woodwork tool.

My ex form tutor has been really nasty to me, she keeps making out that I have a problem with her and accusing me of saying things about her which I haven't. She has got other students in the form to try and find out why I moved. She really upset me yesterday when she said "I thought I'd upset you because your so sensitive" but she said it in a really spiteful way. I'm sick of it, I feel like everyone is having a go at me all the time, I can't get counselling or anything and I'm not allowed to go to this appointment thing. So I basically feel like everyone is just telling me to live with it. Its not fair, I just want to curl up and cry

[Buttercup]

That's awful Icelolly, you need some of these  &*( &*( &*(

You shouldn't have to live with it Icelolly. I had an awful time when at school but I didn't speak out just kept it all inside and that was the worst thing I could have done as it has had serious consequences for me.
I know it's hard but you need to keep telling people how you're feeling, try and go to the meeting if you can.

[Zaf]

Thats great to hear shaz,  I'm sure the good weather helps :)

For Buttercup and IceLolly &*(  &*(  &*(


Oops forgot to say I'm reasonably good today, a 5.5 :)

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone x

I am waiting for an appointment with CAMS or something, bit my mum is going to cancel it because my head of house thinks that I don't need it. But they can't get me a school counsellor so I don't see why I shouldn't go. I think I am going to have to get an appointment with me doctor to find out what the hell is going on

[Zaf]

I think you do need to spwak to your doctor about it Icelolly, I really dont think its up to your head of house to stick her oar in, how on earth can she tell if you need to go or not?   

[Buttercup]

I agree with Zaf, you need to speak to your doctor.

[CharleysAngel']

Well my mum agrees with her, she still thinks that there is nothing wrong with me.  My doctor only referred me to CAMS because there was nothing else she could do, she did it in the hope thayt the school would then let me see a counsellor. She told me to only cancel the appointment with them if I was seeing a counsellor which they have now told me that I will not be able to see.

[Sweetpea]

Icelolly I really think you should speak to your dr about this, she seems to think you need some help.   &*(.

I have had a good day today, my eldest and youngest son have been here with us today, the eldest brought his black labrador with him, so 3 dogs here was fun. 

 &*( to all.

S x

[Buttercup]

Glad to hear you had a good day Shaz  :)

Haven't done a lot today, went to a friends for coffee this morning then came home and spent the rest of the day resting, which was well overdue.  I have had a busy week and as much as I don't like to admit it, overdoing it a bit, my mood has def suffered as a result.

[Holykimura]

Lost and confused and feel the whole world is against me although I know it's just me being a little paranoid I had a heated discussion with my sister yesterday and probably said a few things I maybe shouldn't have, I have had my ex put in a claim for child support even though we had a verbal agreement in place, when I asked my sister to ask her if she had put in a claim she denied it. She told my sister that she knew i wasnt feeling very well and that she didnt want to put me through any more stress. So I got really mad with the child support agency and accused them of making a huge cock up and ended up with egg on my face when the kind gentleman on the end of the line was able to trace the exact date of the claim. So at this point I was really confused and my anxiety levels were sky high, so when I saw my sister I accused her of lying to me and my partner as she had told us that my ex had not made a claim but I found out that my ex had and that my sister new! The worst thing is I am denied any contact with children because my ex has issues with my partner. In addition to this I have been receiving condescending emails from a work colleague. This has happened since I stood up to a person with whom I had problems of bullying and harrasment in the past. This person went off sick and the person who is sending me emails is very friendly with the person who has gone off sick. I have forwarded the 1st email to my line manager, and have since received another email with regards to another topic from the same person which also sounds like he is having a pop at me, I am fuming and wanted to reply and give the person a piece of my mind, but luckily my partner convinced me otherwise. I wanted to forward this one to my line manager along with how this is making me feel, but my partner says there is no reason to send a lengthy email and that I should keep it short and to the point. Then today I have had an email off the person who went off sick asking me to send him some information for Monday, I composed an email in reply and attached the necessary information and asked my partner to check it. She read it and said that my choice of words in my email should be changed, I started asking her whose side was she on and then I ended up upsetting her by saying I feel all alone and not supported. But that's how I feel I feel I have no one to turn to for help. I hope somebody understands me am I being unreasonable?

[Sweetpea]

I don't think so, sometimes the whole world can seem against us.  When you feel down its easy to see the things which are wrong and not see good things.  I certainly take it out on my hubby when I fel down.  I am sure we are not alone.  Sorry you are having problems with the CSA we have our fair share of them too and none of them good.

S x

[Holykimura]

Thanks shaz you made me feel a little better

[Zaf]

Our illness often makes us act in ways we normally wouldnt Holykimura, then of course we feel guilty, try not to dwell on it too much if you possibly can, apologise and try to leave it behind.

Can you not have access to your children on your own?