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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3795 on: February 09, 2012, 06:55:57 AM »
 &*( for all those who need it

Supportme hope all goes well on Saturday, I scored really highly on those questionnaires as well, was it the PHQ 9 and GAD 7 ones? I can only remember feeling awful and down all the time.

Have had another bad night getting quite anxious about CBT appt later.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3796 on: February 09, 2012, 07:54:39 AM »
I know it is really late, and no one is on, but I've felt really strange today. I've felt really guilty, and anxious. I feel like I keep upsetting my friends on here :'(. I am a bad person? :'(. I'm pretty scared about Saturday, I have to go to hospital to see a psychiatrist because I scored really high on the questionnaires they sent me before my CBT telephone consultation. I think they need me to stop thinking about death before than can offer me more treatment. But then that horrible voice is bullying me again. The voice has became my whole mind. She won. She tells me I am a fake and that I'm not actually ill. She tells me I won't ever become better, and tells me I shouldn't accept any treatment from anyone. She says I won't be able to cope with being happy and that I will just screw everything up.
I am terrified of getting better, because ill is all I have ever known. I have always been depressed, it's just now, that the pressures of uni have built up my body and mind refused to continue this battle, and now I have to face the full extent of years of sadness.

Is everyone on here excited about getting better? I am absolutely dreading it. :'( I feel like I don't want to get better, because I will lose my identity :'(.
Dont worry about upsetting us, you have certainly said nothing ot upset me.
As for feeling you dont want to get better - if you have been depressed for so long it is likely (as you say) that its all you can remember.

Beating this illness and moving on with your life will not change you into someone else, it will simply unlock emotions and confidence that you cant access right now. Once you have this, it will 'enhance' who you are and give your character more 'range' which will in turn open up a better life for you. Doesnt sound too scary does it?  ;)

Dont feel that you are a fake - you are not. If you feel so low, then thats how you feel. There is nothing fake about that. Sometimes the world can make us feel that we dont have the right to feel the way we do (that guy has been through a much tougher time, or she has lost everything and has more reasont to be low..) Never compare your suffering to others - what means the world to you may mean nothing to someone else. Take anway a persons world, and they have nothing  ;)

I hope my ramblings make sense. Im back on the morphine and I tend to ramble...

Take care 'supportme' and keep talking to us. You matter to us and we dont think you are fake.  :)
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3797 on: February 09, 2012, 08:17:11 AM »
Feeling grim this morning,  will try to contribute a bit when I'm feeling better - lack of sleep and now low mood :(

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3798 on: February 09, 2012, 08:30:28 AM »
 &*( And for you Zaf.
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Re: Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3799 on: February 09, 2012, 08:32:37 AM »
Very low. No idea why. I should be happy.  I don't care anymore, just gonna get on with it.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3800 on: February 09, 2012, 09:13:47 AM »
I'm feeling huge guilt about something.....and very tearful for the first time in over a week....thought the meds were kicking in before as I have felt a bit 'numb', but back to feeling sad today. :(

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3801 on: February 09, 2012, 09:16:28 AM »
supportme, you're not upsetting anybody and it's better you are honest about how you're feeling.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3802 on: February 09, 2012, 10:45:20 AM »
Feeling cr@p again today, but I've got an appointment to see my psychiatrist at 12 I'm going to discuss my medication and possible support like the crisis team. I also need to ask for support for my OH, she's really struggling, I feel so sorry for her, hope you all are having better days than me :(
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3803 on: February 09, 2012, 12:25:33 PM »
I managed to get some sleep last night, I know it was proper sleep and not just keeping my eyes closed and praying my mind would stop racing (which I've been doing for months) because I had some dreams. They were weird dreams, but at least I had some.

I don't feel as bad physically as I did yesterday, probably because of getting the sleep but in my head I'm still  :'(

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3804 on: February 09, 2012, 01:35:58 PM »
I am quite anxious again today. Feel restless although I am still in my dressing gown sitting up in bed  :-\.

I did something nice yesterday for my brother and his fiancee (wedding in four weeks! :) ). I helped my brother pick out a nice pressie for her, that I will give her from my brother on the morning of their wedding. I'm pretty excited to see her face light up! It didn't make me feel good about myself, but wonderful that I have done something for them. I love the pressie so much I might buy myself the same but in a different colour!

I'm going out with my dad in a bit. Having soup for lunch, this sounds like a journal. lol.

Hope everyone has the best day they possibly can! xxx

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3805 on: February 09, 2012, 02:14:07 PM »
Feeling ignored.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3806 on: February 09, 2012, 03:10:04 PM »
Feeling ignored.
:( Anything I can help with Alstare?

Im not feeling great today but I will try to help if I can.
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3807 on: February 09, 2012, 03:12:52 PM »
Supportme its good that you were able to do something nice for your brother and his fiance. Sometimes doing something positive for others can help us to feel better in ourselves too.


 this sounds like a journal. lol.


Keeping a journal can help and is worth considering if you feel up to it.  ;)

Enjoy your lunch today, I hope you have a good time.
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3808 on: February 09, 2012, 04:18:48 PM »
Supportme I can't see that you have upset anyone? Its really nice that you helped your brother out in choosing a present  :) Sounds like an exciting time! xx

How did your appointment go Holykimura? I often worry that Chris (my OH) is bearing so much of this burden, but as he has said before if he didn't care then he wouldn't be here... sometimes I struggle to remember how it feels to be strong for someone else and well enough to be able to cope better. xx

Whats happening Alstare?  *(* Do you mean ignored on here or generally? We're all here to support you xx



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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #3809 on: February 09, 2012, 04:33:52 PM »
I cant see where you've upset anyone either support me xx



Still very tired, David has just phoned to say he's gone on a breakdown so goodness knows when he'll be home :(
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