How are you feeling today?

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone x

Its just not going to go down well. I'm going to get accused of lying because I try act as happy as I can at home. I never cry in front of my parents because I get told off. I am tired and they know that, but its only because I am 'lazy'. My mum is going to think that the school are accusing her of being a bad mother and she is going to be so angry when she finds out that the school and doctor have been communicating behind her back. And it will all get taken out on me

[Zaf]

We are here to support you Icelolly, however tough it gets &*(

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Zaf xx

[Sweetpea]

Thinking of you Ice Lolly.

S x

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Shaz x

Think I'm going to go to bed in a little while, feeling so tired and tearful

[woozywoo]

Feeling worried 4 some reason,but i dont know why or what its about. I am  tryin 2 sleep,but cant switch off my brain. 

[smirfy21]

What I could do with an upper right about now or something to numb the world

[Zaf]

Thats swful woozywoo, I find reading a good novel helps sometimes xx

Sorry to hear you feel bad again smirfy, can we help at all?  xx

[Buttercup]

 &*( for Everyone who needs it.

Icelolly, I'm thinking of you. I'm in my thirties and my mum doesn't know how I'll I am, she knows I had to give up work late last year, but not why. I see her almost everyday and do the whole happy act thing. It's so hard though, sometimes I wish I could tell her but I know she won't understand.

Bad night again last night, woke up at 1 and couldn't get back to sleep, too many things running through my head. Really got to get this sleeping thing sorted. Xxx

[Glen53]

 &*( for you all today.

Wrap up warm if you are going out, snuggle up and rest if you are staying in.

[Buttercup]

Thanx Glen hope your day is a good one :)

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Buttercup x

I think that when she finds out our family relationship is never going to be the same again. I have a horrible feeling that she won't ever want to talk to me again. She doesn't really believe in depression, when she talks about someone who has it she acts like they are dangerous and should keep away. I just don't think she is going to support me in any way

[Zaf]

Unfortunately a lot of older people have strange ideas what depression actually is, hopefully the person that tells your mum will explain properly what it really is and she'll react better than you think xx

[Glen53]

Agreed. you are doing exactly what i do and playing things out before they have actually happened. See how they really pan out first and deal with them as they unfold. If she gives you a hard time then just give her space and time. My mother was never particularly supportive to me when i was younger, but now that I live in my own place and dont see her everyday, she is much better.

If she is not supportive straight away im sure she will come round Icelolly. Just give her space and time to take it all in.

If she doesnt, then you always have us to talk to.

[woozywoo]

Im in belfast 4 the wknd. I am doin a good job of pretending i am fine and have painted on my smile! I am sure we all know that feeling. When all you truely want 2 do is hide!