How are you feeling today?

[Glen53]

Thinking of you all.  &*(

My day is par for the course of late, so no need to bore with detail here. I will update my blog.

[Sweetpea]

Just got back from my counselling session with MIND.  Lot of it to begin with was form filling and questions eg: how long had I felt depressed, did I feel the need to self harm, did I ever think of ending my life.  Then she asked about family and friends, so she could get a picture of who I would be talking about in future sessions.  Talked about my previous marriage, in which I was totally controlled, told what to say, what to wear and what to do.  Also about my middle son who has stopped all contact with the rest of us in the family.  Didn't cry which I thought I would, took tissues lol.  Maybe will get more emotional as the sessions go on.

But the time flew by, and for the last half hour of the session, I just didn't stop talking.  Which must be good.

S x

[Zaf]

It sounds pretty positive :) do you have weekly sessions?

[Glen53]

Im glad the session went well for you  :)

[CharleysAngel']

A very long day, the 'boyfriend drama' has all kicked off again. Here's the story.

This boy liked me about this time last year, I got to know him, he was nice but too clingy. I should of known then this was going to happen. When he asked me out I said that I didn't think it would work and things got a bit scary. He called me 46 times in 2 hours and threatened to kill himself if I didn't go out with him. Then he started drawing death threats about killing me, he also said I sent him sexual images of myself and  the school got involved. The whole time they were making excuses for him and I felt like I was overreacting. The boy and his friend got away with no punishment.

Now he started spreading some rumours about me. I told my form tutor who told the Senior Leadership team who have apparently spoken to him. What annoyed me about this is that I got this information from a friend. I think it would have been nice for someone in school to inform me of what is going no. Anyway now he is really angry and is threatening to go to our headteacher about me. All this started because one of his friends wants to go out with me and he doesn't like it. Now dount he will just get away with it all again.

Sometimes, I hate life

[doublep]

Go to speak to somebody at school and put a complaint in about threatening and abusive behaviour towards you

Try not let iit get to you so much :)

[Ezel]

Feeling sad and low today BUT had a good conversation on skype with an American student who is an adoptee.  She is doing a dissitaton (sp) on abuse and women but wanted to include a bit on how adoption has changed since the BSE (baby scoop era) and if it is better these days.  According to the 'official BSE' lasted from post (2nd) world war to 1973 with Roe v Wade which helped legalize abortions in the USA.  In fact coerced adoptions still go on  "£"

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks doublep, the school just never seem to do anything. He got away with it last time and I do not understand why.

[Ezel]

Go to speak to somebody at school and put a complaint in about threatening and abusive behaviour towards you

Try not let iit get to you so much :)

I quite agree you need help sorting this out as you can do without the stress.  Try and find out why the school wont help and if you don't get an answer maybe inform the police.

[CharleysAngel']

Thanks Ezel,

Everything is so confusing, there are so many people involved and my phone is literally going off every minute with someone texting me some sort of information. Its like living in a nightmare

[Zaf]

Feeling sad and low today BUT had a good conversation on skype with an American student who is an adoptee.  She is doing a dissitaton (sp) on abuse and women but wanted to include a bit on how adoption has changed since the BSE (baby scoop era) and if it is better these days.  According to the 'official BSE' lasted from post (2nd) world war to 1973 with Roe v Wade which helped legalize abortions in the USA.  In fact coerced adoptions still go on  "£"

Sorry go hear you feel so low today   the research the American student is doing sounds interesting, is it likely to be published?

[Got]

Would like a partner

[Sweetpea]

Yes have weekly 50 minute sessions.  Don't have one next week as in hospital on Wednesday and not sure if I will be able to drive.  So start again the week after.

S x

[Ezel]

Zaf, no it's going towards her exams but I was happy to help her out as adoption is generally talked about from a positive point of view whereas there is a dark side.  Who knows she may decide to end up writing a book.  Another American adoptee called Ann Fessler wrote a book called The Girls Who Went Away which is about mothers who surrendered during BSE.  Mothers would often be sent away to maternity homes and treated appallingly, often drugged during labour, in some cases tied to the bed and made to sign the paperwork while still drugged.  She 'found' her mother as she puts it interviewing these mothers then in reality found her mother before the book was published so her research helped her reunion.  Some of the mothers who were in the book belonged to an online group called Empty Arms.

[Sweetpea]

How sad Ezel, its awful that these things go on.

S x