How are you feeling today?

[CharleysAngel']

^ that's supposed to be an angry face but the more I look at it it doesn't seem very angry, its kind of hard to tell on my phone

[cornish]

Eugh, cold getting worse

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oh crap now i have it :
get well soon my dear






been feeling horrible recently, struggling to do anything. even coming on here is difficult but i will make my self do it at least once a day.

[Zaf]

Thanks mate, I feel like cr@p right now, I hope you dont get it as bad as me



Even thats a positive as you're making yourself do something you dont want to  xx

[Sweetpea]

Not felt great today, very tired and a babging headache, took painkillers but only too the edge off it. Also my legs are really hurting, get pain down the back of both legs as one of my bottom discs in my back has gone.  Go into hospital for day case surgery on Wednesday for spinal block injections.  Just a stop gap until they decide what else they will do.

Sorry for the whinge, but just an off day today.

S x

[Zaf]

Poor you

xx

[Munchroom]

No need to be sorry  &*(

Hope you manage to get a good nights sleep xx

[CharleysAngel']

I'm sorry shaz you seem to have had a really rough time recently. I hope you feel better soon xx

[Sweetpea]

Thanx guys, being doing so good, its just so hard to have an off day.

S x

[Glen53]

The tough days are what we are all here for, so dont apologise 

I hope all goes well on Wednesday and that you feel more comfortable tomorrow.

[Sweetpea]

 :) Thanks so much Glen.

S x

[chilliconcarnage]

Was meant to go on a mountain bike ride through a track this morning. I bailed And after that had a very VERY low couple of hours with dark thoughts. Few random crying sessions today as well. Better now (After a valium), but I know its just a bad day, doesnt make it easier tho

What doesnt kill me, will make me stronger.

[Lol]

What an inconvenient and crappy day. Good attitude. Tomorrow will be better.  &*(

[Glen53]

My thoughts are with you chilliconcarnage and I hope tomorrow is kinder to you.

[chilliconcarnage]

Thanks for your kind words. It really is nice to know others understand. People moan about the internet/computers and how antisocial it is. I think its to the contrary... Forums are great places, i'm a member of a few, and have allways met (online) nice people who have time to talk or share experiences. x

[smirfy21]

Do you think it could be that if you go to hospital yourself its voluntary and if you were sectioned its been taken out of your hands?

Try to take it a day at a time if you can xx

well that is one of my fears yes, the thought of having no control over my own life is very scary although that is pretty much how I feel at the moment anyway.
I am also scared about how my family would react to me being in hospital as they don't know how bad things have got, when I talk to them I lie and say everything is brilliant, fine and dandy and when I am at home I try my hardest to act normal (they just think I sleep too much)
also Im right in the middle of my final year of uni so being sectioned would destroy everything I have worked for, my parents would loose their deposit and all the money they pay towards me being at uni would be for nothing.

don't feel guilty about feeling grotty I know how it can affect your mood when you're not feeling well, and aching all over. take some time for yourself and work on getting yourself better. I find taking long hot steamy baths with vix or something really helps.

hope you are feeling better soon zaf  :)

It would scare me too to a certain extent but on the other hand I think it would feel nice to let other people take control so I didnt have to fight and struggle any more.

Is it worth telling your parents a tiny bit of the truth to prepare them in case you do need to go to hospital?

Where uni is concerned would they not accept a doctor's certificate and hold your position open till you were better?  What would they do for a student that perhaps had a car accident and was off for months - surely they cant discriminate between illness and mental illness?

Z xx

well I suppose uni would keep my place open and as you say they can't discriminate between illness.
I suppose the reason I am so reluctant to tell my family how I feel is because I fear their reaction, it took me so long to tell them about my depression and my bulimia and their reaction to that wasn't good so I fear what they would say if I was to tell them I needed to go into hospital. It would end everything and there is no way my parents would let me have my freedom once I got out and let me go back to uni they would be constantly looking over my shoulder and never leaving me alone.

I am sorry about complaining it really must seem like I have so much going for me and like im acting like a spoilt brat. I don't mean for it to come across like that and I am well aware that I could be so much worse off.
smirfy