How are you feeling today?

[Munchroom]

Yeah... I don't want to nag, I just worry xx

[Glen53]

You aren't naggin, just worrying because you care as we all do. You are always so caring to others so im not surprised you are worried.

If you are ever worried about someone, then click on their name next to a post. It will show you when they were last here  
It eases the worry a little.

[smirfy21]

I went to my doctors today and was seen by a male doctor who was shocked that I had been left untreated for so long due to the fact that I have not seen a local psychiatrist. he has referred me again on an emergency basis over to the local mental health team as I told him I didn't want to fight anymore and just wanted it all to end so I should get an appointment next week. in the mean time he is going to keep a close eye on me as I refused to go to A&E after he warned me that if they think I am a risk to myself then there is a possibility that they could keep me in the hospital and to prepare myself for that and just except it. (the last thing I need is to be sectioned).

I have been on hear so many times and said I wish I could just walk into the hospital and get the help I need so why the hell am I fighting being sectioned? I know it's coming and I don't want to fight this anymore but I also don't want to give up my only shot of finishing uni or my uni finding out. this is all coming at such a bad time and I don't know how to tell my family because they don't have a clue whats going on or that things have got so bad.

smirfy

[Zaf]

Do you think it could be that if you go to hospital yourself its voluntary and if you were sectioned its been taken out of your hands?

Try to take it a day at a time if you can xx

[Zaf]

I feel guilty because I'm going to whinge how grotty my cold is making me feel

On a good note I'm still pretty positive and I was afraid that feeling physically ill would make my mood drop drastically

[Glen53]

Dont apologise or feel guilty. Colds do make you feel low  As long as you give yourself rest time over the weekend and have those all important fluids it should be gone soon.

In the meantime,  &*(

Smirfy, I think you are fighting because of the stigma of being sectioned. Its a scary thing to happen - I saw it happen to a friend. It is however, important to mention that it is what she needed and likely saved her life at the time. There are many levels of 'sectioning' somebody so its not as daunting as some think of it as being. Just remember that if you feel at risk, dont think about it, just do it and trust them to keep you safe whilst you recover.

[smirfy21]

Do you think it could be that if you go to hospital yourself its voluntary and if you were sectioned its been taken out of your hands?

Try to take it a day at a time if you can xx

well that is one of my fears yes, the thought of having no control over my own life is very scary although that is pretty much how I feel at the moment anyway.
I am also scared about how my family would react to me being in hospital as they don't know how bad things have got, when I talk to them I lie and say everything is brilliant, fine and dandy and when I am at home I try my hardest to act normal (they just think I sleep too much)
also Im right in the middle of my final year of uni so being sectioned would destroy everything I have worked for, my parents would loose their deposit and all the money they pay towards me being at uni would be for nothing.

don't feel guilty about feeling grotty I know how it can affect your mood when you're not feeling well, and aching all over. take some time for yourself and work on getting yourself better. I find taking long hot steamy baths with vix or something really helps.

hope you are feeling better soon zaf  :)

[Zaf]

Do you think it could be that if you go to hospital yourself its voluntary and if you were sectioned its been taken out of your hands?

Try to take it a day at a time if you can xx

well that is one of my fears yes, the thought of having no control over my own life is very scary although that is pretty much how I feel at the moment anyway.
I am also scared about how my family would react to me being in hospital as they don't know how bad things have got, when I talk to them I lie and say everything is brilliant, fine and dandy and when I am at home I try my hardest to act normal (they just think I sleep too much)
also Im right in the middle of my final year of uni so being sectioned would destroy everything I have worked for, my parents would loose their deposit and all the money they pay towards me being at uni would be for nothing.

don't feel guilty about feeling grotty I know how it can affect your mood when you're not feeling well, and aching all over. take some time for yourself and work on getting yourself better. I find taking long hot steamy baths with vix or something really helps.

hope you are feeling better soon zaf  :)

It would scare me too to a certain extent but on the other hand I think it would feel nice to let other people take control so I didnt have to fight and struggle any more.

Is it worth telling your parents a tiny bit of the truth to prepare them in case you do need to go to hospital?

Where uni is concerned would they not accept a doctor's certificate and hold your position open till you were better?  What would they do for a student that perhaps had a car accident and was off for months - surely they cant discriminate between illness and mental illness?

Z xx

[Zaf]

Oops, meant to say thanks guys, yes I promise lots of rest and fluids, I'll have that steamy bath too Smirfy :)

[CharleysAngel']

I'm freezing cold!! And apart from having a cold and being tired I am feeling fairly positive now, much better than I was when I got home. I remember all the good stuff that happened today. I got an A* in my science mock which I didn't revise for :) I want to be a nurse so I'm glad about that because the sciences are the most important qualications for medicine right?

[Zaf]

A* is brilliant :)

have you a tin of soup or something you can heat up quickly to warm you up from inside and find something you can snuggle up in to get warmer?

[CharleysAngel']

Well I have already had dinner so I am snuggled up next to the radiator with a blanket :) sure I will be warm enough soon

[Munchroom]

Well done Icelolly - A* is wonderful xx

[Lol]

A* icelolly???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bugger me that's brilliant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[CharleysAngel']

Thanks everyone :)
 
I have two science teachers and we were in our other science class and the teacher who marked the paper came in to announce to the rest of the class what I got on my paper, it was kind of embarrassing but nice at the same time as I haven't really had any proper praise for a while x