How are you feeling today?

[woozywoo]

Good, its nice to spend some time with people/family, it can occupy your mind. Do they know about your difficulties at the momnent?

[doublep]

My closest friends do, family know a little, but only that I'm on meds and go to therapy.. don't want them to know anymore

[woozywoo]

But even knowing just a little at least they can offer you a little support over the weekend if needed.

[woozywoo]

Im feeling worse as the time goes past. I need to go back to docs, but i am scared and worried for some reason. I dont feel as though they believe how i feel is genuine.

[doublep]

Im feeling worse as the time goes past. I need to go back to docs, but i am scared and worried for some reason. I dont feel as though they believe how i feel is genuine.

I feel the same at the doctors.

But keep telling them x

[woozywoo]

Ive been there loads, although not recently. But i know i am going downhill, am putting off going there which is only going to make things worse. What can they do, Honestly its up to me isnt it....but i am not strong enough to imporve my own life, so it muct be my fault i am in this situation.

[doublep]

Even if you feel it wont help, I would hope that you could do the right thing and go, even though its hard, I hate making myself go. its not your fault you are feeling bad x

To answer your above question to me, I have told my 2 close friends, 1 doesn't cope well with me being like this, so wish I didn't say anything.

[woozywoo]

Well i am actually away now for the Chriostmas period, so wouldnt be able to have an appt until the end of next week anyway, so will build myself up to that one maybe.

Its like that with friends. I have 1 friend who knows how i feel, but we dont realy talk about it. If they havent been there, i find they just dont understand.

[doublep]

Ahh fair enough, sounds like a good plan and go next week when you can :)

Yeah 1 has been there, the other hasn't. Think I worry them though.

[woozywoo]

It does worry people. I have seen my family at a loss as how they can help me. I tell one member of my family i am feeling a bit low, then i have several of them texting and chekcing on me. Whihc is nice but it does make me feel bad that the poeple i love and care about are worried about me with an illn ess that i am not strong enough to get rid of.

[Holykimura]

Woozywoo turn that into a positive in that you are fortunate to have people who love you and want you to feel well rather than feeling guilty, you must be special to them otherwise they probably would not bother.

[woozywoo]

Thanx Holy, i know you are right and i aam so thankful that i have those people around me.

[cornish]

last day of work till the 3rd and till then im going to be in hell.

 im going to try and write some more in my journal, dont want to clutter this up and want to keep all of my **** in one place

[woozywoo]

Whats hell cornish? Being in or out of work?

[doublep]

Cornish I take.it you rather be at work? Keeping.busy?
that's how I like to be, I'm thankful that I work mon-fri no.matter what (security) otherwise I'd go mad being off work. So I understand. Try keep.occupied mate.