How are you feeling today?

[cornish]

work has been the only thing keeping me going, i used to love work but now i hate it yet when i haven't got it there as a distraction
basically when im out of work im in hell.



typed a lot but just taking it slow in the journal,got a lot more to type too but i dont know if i can leave it all in there, let alone be able to actually post it.

Cornish I take.it you rather be at work? Keeping.busy?
that's how I like to be, I'm thankful that I work mon-fri no.matter what (security) otherwise I'd go mad being off work. So I understand. Try keep.occupied mate.

yep,  i think i spent at least 3 months without a day off at one point and probably less than 20 2 day weekends this year

[woozywoo]

Totally understnad...My work definately keeps me occupied, i think i would go crazy without. BUT i have 13 weeks holiday a year and theredfore those times are stressful adn i sleep for lots of that time because i have no structure. Curtrently on holiday now and though a break is a welcome relieve work offers stability and routine to my life.

[cornish]

i took maybe 2 out of 30 something days this year and only due to appointments

[woozywoo]

I dont have a choice in my holdiays. Have to take them and at certain times.

Feel so lonely and alone right now.

[cornish]

we are here for you, im not much use at the moment though.

[woozywoo]

Thanks Cornish but im not worth trying to help. You focus on making yourseof ok.

[cornish]

everyone is worth helping. there isnt a lot i can actually do for my self, i will never fully recover from this due to the physical damage caused. if i can help some one else out even in a small way its worth trying.

[Zaf]

Hey Zaf

Still bored but fairly stable otherwise for now. How are you tonight?

Fairly stable is a definite improvement :)

Last night I felt exhausted so went to bed really early, this morning I feel anxious again but absolutely no idea why, I'm sure it will pass but its not a nice feeling while I have it

[Lol]

Alstare I'm so glad to see you are feeling fairly stable that must be such a relief! Well done.  :) How's your sleep??

[Alstare1974]

Yeah my sleep pattern is back to normal.

[Zaf]

Thats great Alstare :)

[Lol]

That's brilliant Alstare! I've not heard you sounding this positive for a long time!! Are you still seeing friends? What's your next step to tackle? You say you are bored, how are you feeling about maybe a hobby or a job?

[woozywoo]

Feeling like i want to isolate myself today. The time i ahve off work is precious because when i am there it is full on, but i feel as though i want to waste most of those days curled up under my duvet all alone.

That wont be the bext option because then i will be giving in to how i feel and it will be a downhill spiral from there onwards.....

[Zaf]

I know it feels like we are giving up when we want to that but sometimes its actually the best thing to do xx

[Lol]

I agree. The tendancy is to try to be productive or do something becuase you damn well should be enjoying yourself, but unfortunately what you probably actually need is to get in your pit and have a lovely sleep. If you ask yourself that question 'what would I enjoy the most right now' and it's getting into bed, that's ok! BE honest with yourself and try not to feel guilty! It;s what you need!  :)