How are you feeling today?

[Glen53]

Cornish - glad you are ok

Lol - Sorry to hear you are feeling like that. You have had so much advice to offer others and seem like such a kind and caring person, it makes ME angry to think someone has treated you this way. You deserve better. The only thing I can say is that although you may feel the last 10 years have been futile, its not worth making it 11 years. Thats like handing another victory to her.  I wish you all the best and hope you can beat the way you are feeling - it would be the best way to win a victory back from her.

Take care both of you.

 

 

[Munchroom]

Alstare - thats fantastic news  :) Zafs idea of picking up a hobby - old or new - is a great idea! For me it was making cakes.... Not that I particularly eat them, but everyone else doesn't seem to mind!  Its so lovely to hear positive news - well done!!!! xx

Lol - I am so, so sorry  &*( have you been to the doctors? This situation is so incredibly unfair and cruel. I don't blame you for feeling so angry - but this will pass. I know it feels like getting through each day is such an unbearable struggle right now, but it won't always be like this. Please keep posting, allow us to support you through this, I'm thinking of you lovely xx

Zaf - You can see when someone was last online by viewing their profile. Hope you have a relaxing weekend planned!! :) xx


Very very very tired today - we went last night to do some christmas shopping (food wise for some hampers im making) in a nice, small supermarket a couple of villages away, but they had a huge... I don't know, christmas evening thing going on throughout the village - it was packed  The super market car park was full and Chris was getting a bit frustrated because obviously people had been using the supermarket car park to go and wander around the village. We decided to just go home, but getting out of the village was all narrow streets and people steeping out in front the car etc. It was awful, sent my anxiety levels through the roof!! And then of course all the way home I couldnt think straight because I had it all planned out in my head what we were goingt to be doing and when and it just seemed to throw everything - by the time we got home I was in full panic attack mode  theres a free concert I really really want to go to in Bristol thisevening, but I know now I just won't be able to cope...

Bloody anxiety *shakes fist* 

[Zaf]

Lol, glen and munchroom are right, its time we supported you now.

Yes thanks, I plan to make the fudge (thought about attempting halve but I need it for tomorrow morning and didnt realise it needed so sit in the fridge for 36 hours) then do a tiny bit of tidying then get my cross stitch, paints or pencils out and spend the afternoon doing my own thing.

Tomorrow I'm out to lunch with a group of people I know well (and most know about my illness), its in one of their homes so apart from driving there should be no anxiety associated - my contribution is the fudge so I may need to make 2 batches.

Poor you &*(  thats dreadful, I hope you feel better soon

[woozywoo]

Don't fewel like i can make it to the end of today.

I am not strong enough to do anything asbout it, but i looked at a boittle of tablets this morning and thety looked very appealing. I wouldnt do it, but how much more can i take?

[Lol]

Thanks guys. I can#t pull it together

[Zaf]

Please let us support you lol, you have done so much for everyone here and we really want to help as much as we can in whatever way we can, just say the word

Z xx

[Zaf]

Don't fewel like i can make it to the end of today.

I am not strong enough to do anything asbout it, but i looked at a boittle of tablets this morning and thety looked very appealing. I wouldnt do it, but how much more can i take?

If the feeling persists please either phone the Samaritans, 999 or get an emrgency appointment with ypur GP

[Glen53]

Lol, you have given me so many words of support and kindness since i have been on the forum. I feel sad for you that you feel as you do, but keep fighting on. People like you are one in a million and have so much to offer. Im sure in time you will find something that can offer you a little something back.

Woozywoo, I agree with Zaf above about ringing for help if you need it.

I have rung the samaritans once before myself and found them to be very kind and supportive.

I read your post in my journal about things seeming very similar. If i can help at all then please let me know. Ask me anything you want to - perhaps talking to someone in a similar position may help you? 

Take care.

[Lol]

thanks but I can't think how you can help.

[Zaf]

Lol, you sound to be in a very bad place, hopeless and down, I'm not sure how we can help either but you know we all suffer from depression of various kinds and at least one or two of us must have some knwledge how we can help.

Have you been to yor GP and got some medication?  Personally I'd also suggest some sort of counselling if you can find the right person xx

[Glen53]

I can help by listening. Its not much I know, but I offer a friendly ear anyway.

[xwardx]

Well said Glen that's what we are all here for and lets admit it talking to complete strangers does help

[woozywoo]

Glen, i was in a bit of a mess earlier and upset when i was posting. You said you read my post in your journal and when i looked i have posted it in the wrong place. Feel very silly now. Sorry about that, but thank you for offering support, very kind of you.

[woozywoo]

Zaf...Sdorry about earlier, i shouldnt have posted what i did. x

[Zaf]

woozywoo if you feel bad you should post how you feel, no one will judge, we all know how this horrible illness affects us xx