How are you feeling today?

[Holykimura]

Munchroom thanks for your advice, I do feel anxious driving to work but not on the way back home, I try and remind myself of all the positives I achieved throughout the day. It works occasionally with mixed results. I'm normally dreading going back after a half term break or the weekend. I think your right about applying for any old job. I am being selective over what I am going to apply for, and only things I feel I could cope with.

[Lol]

Hi Everyone.

Alstare I am so pleased to hear you had a lovely night with your friends that's so positive! To hear that you enjoyed yourself makes me smile and high five the screen! Even though a lower period followed, it is very good to know that you are able to have these positive experiences. Do them and think of them as regularly as you can. I think doing things like this is very positive for you and will aid your recovery faster. Well done.  :)

Cornish I will be thinking of you on Wednesday. I hope you get some more sessions, for you to say that deep down you know they are working is fantastic and will be very disappointing if they then stop. I understand you are contemplating many options at the moment. I very strongly wish that you make choices that keep you safe and allow you to continue. If there is anything we can do or say to help to support you it would be a pleasure. Take Care.

Munchroom well done on your productivity! Dying your hair and making a Christmas cake! Get in!! Woo Hoo!!

Zaf I'm sorry you are feeling so dispondent that your holiday has come to an end. You had a lovely time. I hope that you can feed off the relaxation you achieved and keep it going for a bit. You have some difficult times ahead, start to make changes slowly, at a pace you can cope with. And when you go to hand your holiday cottage keys in...don't leave until you have booked another stay! If you can't change things as quick as you would like at home, get away more often. You deserve it.

Well everyone, I am off on my jollies tomorrow until Friday and if I don't manage to access this site I will miss you all!!  I will be thinking of you all and taking with me the comfort you have all given me over the months I have been in here. I can at any time conjur you all up and feel the support that we all give each other and I hope you can do the same. You are all amazing, strong, supportive people. You have touched each others lives and you should all be incredibly proud of your own battles and to have supported those of others. Keep your head up and your heart strong.

.......eh herm.........that's quite enough of that..

Lol xx

[Glen53]

Thankyou for your support Lol, and enjoy your break  :)

[Zaf]

Have a great time lol and thanks for all your support xx

Not feeling too ad now I'm home and I've brought some of the peace and calm with me, deliberately not thinking of work!

[Got]

Hope everyone is doing ok today. X

[cornish]

intrusive thoughts seem to be pretty bad today, not going to go into what they are.


*edit

options are going towards one way at the moment, yes i know i have made progress in some areas but the areas i dont talk about here seem to be getting worse, the intrusive thoughts, the voices, the self harm, the meticulous planning of amputation, the meticulous planning of the end

[Lol]

Cornish the areas you do not talk about are getting worse and that is giving you the notion that the option of ending it all is the most appealing. these are difficult thoughts.  I want you to make the right choice for you. I wish you to choose life because you are important to me and I can see what you have to live for. You are intelligent, tallented, creative, and constructive and practical. One day you will be over this, stronger, looking back in amazement at what you went through and proud and thankful that you managed it. And we will still be talking. It occurs to me that the feelings you do talk about are the ones that disturb you the least.

[Zaf]

I wish I could do or say something to help more cornish, you are an amazing guy and the world would be a poorer place without you, I would miss you a huge amount too, I hope so much your health team can come up with some answers for you to start a real and sustained recovery

Z xxx

[cornish]

thanks for the support. im still thinking a lot but will be waiting until wednesday night before i make a final decision, but that though is putting a lot of pressure on me.

just realized that i have 3 week holiday left to take before christmas, im only just at the point where i can bear a weekend and i have to spend most of that asleep.

[Got]

Cornish.....I really hope you get through this.

In terms of intrusive thoughts, if you need any advice ask and I can help...I've had 28 years of it and I know how to deal with them and even stop them from happening. There is no need to talk about what the thoughts are, I have never told a single person what my intrusive thoughts are ever, but there are was to deal with them, and even elimnate them, even when it seems impossible.

They can be very distressing and make you think your a sicko. But there are methods to reduce them.

[Zaf]

Do you have to take the time off?  I guess under some daft legislation you may have to?

[cornish]

Cornish.....I really hope you get through this.

In terms of intrusive thoughts, if you need any advice ask and I can help...I've had 28 years of it and I know how to deal with them and even stop them from happening. There is no need to talk about what the thoughts are, I have never told a single person what my intrusive thoughts are ever, but there are was to deal with them, and even elimnate them, even when it seems impossible.

They can be very distressing and make you think your a sicko. But there are methods to reduce them.

thanks



i dont really know zaf, either way there is no way i could cope with more than a weekend off work

[Zaf]

If its a small firm you may be able to come to some arrangement cornish, we have one guy that rarely takes all his holiday entitlement, there are ways around it if the boss is willing to allow it.

[cornish]

the laws have changed and hes not allowed to pay it off anymore.




just had a chat with munchroom, really helped.  wont go into any details about what we chatted about but she basically guilt tripped me, bloody women 

[doublep]

Hi everybody, today I feel really down and can actually feel some form of emotion.

This started Friday evening afterwork... ended up frustrated with not feeling anything and cut my arm again.  Then I ended up out in town drinking, got drunk very easily and was ill for abit then actually enjoyed myself... dunno how wise it was tbh.

I can't stand being in my own company, yet at the same time I can't cope with anyone else around me right now.

Hopefully this passes.