How are you feeling today?

[cornish]

had today and tomorrow off as im working nights again tonight. long story but im pissed off about it.   tried to go shopping, failed, tried to go and see some one, failed, couldn't even bring my self to see my grandparents

feeling tired, going to have a nap, really wish i wouldn't wake up sometimes

i hope you get through it soon mate

i might be moving to your neck of the woods soon :) cant wait

thanks



bloody emmits invadeing cornwall  

ah what area are you moveing to. not that it matters because all of cornwall is awesome  

ha ha iv been wanting to move there since i first went when i was 18 ha ha, and hopefully Launceston :)

ah right, not a bad place and they have a barnecutts pasty shop mmmm




 "£" "£" "£" "£" "£" "£" "£" *() *()
i forgot to write down what day my gp appointment was and called up a few days ago to see what time it was, they told me 7.15.  just been there and it says 6.40.  my gp had waited but i missed him by 5 minuets. pissed off about this, anxiety has gone though the roof and im now even more paranoid as they have done this to me before, conspiracy thoughts are coming back about the nhs trying to make me worse so i kill my self and its one less patient to deal with.
im really angry right now, its not like me to get that angry unless something HUGE sets me off. now i have to go to work in about an hour and if it didn't mean letting people down and costing 2 days rental on a cherry picker then i wouldn't go. dunno what i would do, guilt is the only thing keeping me here i think

[cornish]

and now ive just gone a bit ott on spending on crap the past few days as a bit of retail therapy, well now ive just added it all up and feel utterly crap as i have spent a large chunk of my savings and now i cant afford what i was saving for. bo****ks

[BladeRunner]

Now that I have moved (although lots of my stuff still not here and will not get here soon, unfortunately), I can and must prepare for the job I'll be starting on 1st December. Pretty nervous, excited and anxious, and lots to do  !"! But at least the journey today was ok, and this is now off my mind. Wishing you all the best!

cornish, I also always feel bad after spending (too much) money. but I think you shouldn't dwell on this too long now, but concentrate on other things...

[Lol]

Oh Cornish I'm so sorry what an annoying experience. anyone would be angry 

[cornish]

Really regretting this night work and not takeing my anti psychotics because Of it, wont gO into what I'm seeing/ heAring. And feeling as its not something that ideally talk about as it scares people.
It's just hell for me, can't do this again, for once I think my health is going to come before work.

[Got]

I you have to take the evening off, I am sure that is acceptable given the circumstances.

[Alstare1974]

Really regretting this night work and not takeing my anti psychotics because Of it, wont gO into what I'm seeing/ heAring. And feeling as its not something that ideally talk about as it scares people.
It's just hell for me, can't do this again, for once I think my health is going to come before work.

Cornish if it helps to get it off your chest am sure you won't freak anyone out here. At least you seem to be able to distinguish between reality and hallucination.

Evening Stevie. Another late night for you?

[Alstare1974]

  !"! Its 5am and its already been a long night  !"!

[Zaf]

Really regretting this night work and not takeing my anti psychotics because Of it, wont gO into what I'm seeing/ heAring. And feeling as its not something that ideally talk about as it scares people.
It's just hell for me, can't do this again, for once I think my health is going to come before work.

Cornish if it helps to get it off your chest am sure you won't freak anyone out here. At least you seem to be able to distinguish between reality and hallucination.

Evening Stevie. Another late night for you?

I agree with Alstare,  if you need to let it out please do so,  just put it in a thread with a warning on so people can avoid it if they want but I'm sure most of us would read and try to understans/help rather than avoid it

[Zaf]

I seem to start most mornings feeling overwhelmed,  its the same today,  I consider what most of you are going through and think all I do is moan about what is, at the moment, very slight, depression, and it makes me feel guilty

[doublep]

Today I feel numb inside, cant seem to show any emotions at all... only had 2 hours sleep last night, was wide awake from 5am yesturday till 3am today 
Dunno if this is from starting the citalopram or just general issues?

[Zaf]

its very normal to have those symptoms as part of depression unfortunately,  I'm on Citralopram and normally it improves the emotionless, tiredness and insomnia I suffer from but if you are at all worried please do go back to see your GP

[Lol]

Cornish please let us know how you are feeling and what you are experiencing we wont be frightened. Try us. It is important that you are able to express things and not bottle them up. Get them out. It's ok.

[Alstare1974]

As yet I haven't slept :-(

[Zaf]

Thats miserable Alstare