I have been struggleing for a while now, rang to see why I haven't received my appointment for CBT my Therapist has been off since before Xmas, and I seen another one in Jan, on my last session they said they would send me out an appointment . My husband pushed me to ring today, and they told me my therapist is still off work. Over the past few weeks I have had two medical assesments which have worried me a lot, and I have to admit I am not coping too well and hubby is taking the brunt of it.
I love to cook and bake and lately I am struggling to do this turning the wrong rings on forgetting about things in the oven thank goodness all is electric, last week I was making a boiled fruit cake and forgot the butter!!! I am getting more and more frustrated, last night was awful and I was going to ring lifeline, but I took my meds and went to bed, however I didn't sleep too well even with the sleeping tablet. I am just so afraid I am slipping lower and lower, its is so difficult to have people understand, my own best friend rang me last week to tell me about a local guy committing suicide, as if I needed to hear this. Before December I felt i was really getting somewhere, how long did it take anyone to get better. Sometimes I feel like throwing all the meds in the bin, and seeing if I would be better without them.
Tomorrow night I have agreed for us to visit my best friend, I am so worried that if she tells me all the bad news about everyone (she works in a receptionist post and hears all the local gossip about people) that I will snip her off. Personally I could never listen or wasn't interested in gossip as I always say if make these statements they can come back and bite you on the bottom &^%
Hope you are all well.